A New Me

2008-05-10T04:23:00.000-07:00

hihi! im back again!! i think im going to create a new blog yet againsoon....when i have e time....cos recently, there have been many changes in my life...i'm going to move into a another room soon too..but that will have to wait till my grandma goes back to m'sia then i can start moving my stuff.....

hmmm....2dae i tink my mum woke up on the wrong side of the bed cos even though my sis and i did the housework, she juz harped on the things we DIDN'T do.. im like,"ok lor. i do later lor" then she got even more pissed. so i said,"ok lor, i do now lor." then i brought e dog down for a walk....then she moved on to my sis and my sis got so pissed and upset tht she didnt want to go for training...summore she juz joined e basketball club she had always longed for...

i felt it was quite a pity. if it was me, her scolding me would get me rebellious and go to e training even more...i guess tht's our difference in opinions. i try to make that person even angrier on purpose if that person gets angry at me for no reason whatsoever whereas my sis will get upset over it... i wonder if i should get angry too?

nope. i prefer being offensive. =)

then my sis and i went to e mall to get some $$ and while i was thinking,"ok, i'll listen to her vent out her anger" but soon she started directing her anger at me....

-_-"" what the.....but the prospect of getting money made me happy...and i (yet again on purpose) reminded her that she still owed me money, knowing the fact that she needed the money for her own bdae party....i must be a sadist. but heck, eye for an eye! XD

went home and my sis went out to play bball with her friends leaving me with the tigeress and grandma alone..this time,it was the tigeress directing her anger at me...saying that she shldn't hav quit her job cos it meant her doing the housework , she dun wanna wash e clothes anymore....blah blah blah...

funny thing is, i REPEATEDLY told her that she could find a new job and that it was her choice because it was her life. but i guess she has amnesia. poor little thing. so i filtered whatever she said yet again...i don't mind doing the housework, washing my clothes though....it's the 21st century! there is such a term as a MACHINE. =)

oh well....now im on e computer doodling about....guess i might as well start to pack up my stuff....good thing about my dad, he's a guy. guy= no complaints.okay, he has. but at least not as much as the tigeress, that's for sure!

k! im going to clear up my room!!! ciaos!!!!i'll let u guys know about my website when i create it okayz!

2008-05-04T01:15:00.000-07:00

tired~~ wed went for swimming wit my fren but ended up staying at her place overnight....the reason?? i was tempted by the anime and manga available!!!! HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEH~~~ S.A. & Vampire Knight ROCKZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! e anime came out not long ago.....SUPER NICE! excpt that i prefer the manga for some characters cos the drawing is much nicer!!! for vampire knight, i love ZERO......'s gun!!!! it's called bloody rose i tink!!! i want a gun like that mans!!!!

xcuse me but i just have a fetish for guns.....silver especially! ehe~~~^o^

hahahhas~oso got watch xXxholic Kei (season2) funny!!!i like e 3rd episode!! touching mans!!!! i like the girl in kimono withthe shoulder-length hair....so sweet!!!

then thursday went to a manga shop to read Zig-Zag (recommended by another friend)which was quite funny!!!! read Nana oso but cos i hadn't been keeping up with the manga i couldn't connect the story.....then went home to bake a cake for my fren's belated bdae celebration....next day took it to sch and it turned out...okay...

some said it was good, 1 said i may not have baked it long enough.....T.T oh well..then we went ice-skating!! muahahahahahas! i did not fall!!! XD

today woke up at 12 (slept for 12 hrs) den started stoning....den decided to dl some things for my new laptop like msn all that......den i started massive dl-ing....cos 1 website go to another website den more and more....till now...mb gg to watch Vampire Knight 4 b4 i go slp.....c 1st... but i cant play my anime - xxxholic ep 4!!! V_V oh well..back to anime...or mb slp...ciaos!

2008-04-24T22:10:00.000-07:00

i went for the badminton trial....it went well but i didnt get into e club cos they needed experienced players to represent the sch to play against other poly's..... my badminton skills are not are as good so i'll just hav to practice more...

some people just don't care about what i do which is good but sometimes bad too.... hmm...perhaps i am the one who keeps expecting??

2dae dam suay....on e bus on e way to sch, my nose started running and i, the lazy type to not even bring tissue, had to look at the ceiling of the bus the entire 1/2 journey....what a view.

once i alighted, i immediately went to the toilet which, fortunately, had dispensable tissue!!! imagine in animation: an internal me screaming hallelujah while the real me acting cool. must be watching too much anime...

tmr i gg bugis with my frens to buy clothes!! i need a bag since i've been borrowing my sister's since e start of sch....i need pants cos i have less than 5 and tshirts that i can play badminton with....

what i do not need but want will be velco rollers just to try for fun and a cool jacket so that i can wear a grandma's shirt inside and no one will even notice! aha.

well..im gg to sleep now....have been slping late and waking up early the entire week....gotta cut myself some slack. ciaos~

2008-04-09T18:01:00.000-07:00

haix...2day went to play badminton with my mei, her bf and her bf's sis.....den in e midst of it, the couple quarreled leaving the sis and me to play....-_-" if u ppl wan to play, play seriously...and please don't waste ur time and money by leaving the court halfway....

oh well....but after they he hao, the bf and i played...not bad! used alot of strength and running about! hahas~i tink that was e best! that way oi can train myself to be better and better! think tmr i gg swimming then fri i gg cycling with mei....

and one thing abt e new sems, i have NIGHT classes!!! only on tue tht y i starting to hate tue....='( but this sems i m gg to start attending class!!! i wont try to pon whenever i want le!! must study for grades and money and future!!!

although i haven't gotten rid of the addiction to manga.........=P oh well....shall blog next time!! ciaos~

2008-03-17T10:18:00.000-07:00

my attachment is OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yahoooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tmr gg swimming wit my frenz......finally!!! after talking so much about it, we actually get to go!!!

haix...but at home....my parents came back from thailand but my mum went to malaysia the day after.....so now only left my sis, dad and myself....tok abt tdy...haix...

my dad blew up at the dog.....the DOG.....wow. i felt like laughing.....i mean, no pont doing tht rite?! all the dog does is wag its tail and smile while u are scolding it....i don't see any benfit and only him getting angry.... -_-"

then worst is, he angry take it out on me....-_-" haix wad to do? take it as er bian feng.... den to coat it, my sis oso got angry wit me for not reading her note....not my fault that it was hidden underneath the newspaper and i didn't INTENTIONALLY ignore it.... sheesh...y izzit that when she doesn the same thing i don't get angry but when i do it, she flares up?

hmm...mb their anger trigger is easy to hit.....oh well...NOMB.....dun too guo fen cos u nvr kno....even a mouse bites back. i'm still storing it....if my patience meter is used up, dun blame me. :)

2008-03-05T22:58:00.000-08:00

on 2nd week of attachment!!! tml is thursday! 7 more days to go and counting down..... 2dae after shift, i went out of e building to find rain pouring down....den i nvr like to bring umbrella so i got drenched but luckily i dried off in e cold mrt....

hahas~now i'm so used to cold water that i barely shiver and e cold as in ice cold water....cos my hse no heater for bathroom n i bathe in e morning...

but from tml till next wednesday, i'll be working in e afternoon shift which equals no waking up at 5am!!!hurray!!!!! 2day nearly exploded cos of a lecturer and another person....but luckily, my godbro was free and nice enuf to listen to me!! if not, i would've talked back and gotten myself marked down....

but i tink i got a sore eye o e right...it's quite red...trying not to rub it...well, my body demands sleep after days of 8-hr sleep......so cheers to sleeping late and waking up late!!

2008-02-28T20:19:00.000-08:00

tdy i went to e clinic as usual...it was all okay till the afternoon part....i was ignored by the SSN!!!!!!! she was like,"sorry to leave u by urself ar....but im busy...." -_-" i didnt dare to sit down too....so i was just walking and standing around the room and taking all the pamphlets to read.....2 whole hrs.....

when i was about to leave, there was a pt tht needed my help so i stayed back as i watched my friends wave byebye....so sad.... then last minute oso got a emergency case so i couldnt ask anyone for help either.... so waited here and there and left about 20-30 mins later....-_-"

then went home....wanted to go swimming but then came the thunder....my mom said tht it was most likely to rain so i didnt go out.....but it didn't rain......wad is THIS!!!

well....nth much...ate dinner, bathed, now waiting 4 hair 2 dry b4 slping...oh ya...and im chattting online too!hahas~this morning damn funny.....went to the polyclinic and i didn;t even recognise a SEN....the thing was, i was with this SEN for 5 whole hours ytd and today i was like," hmm...another SEN..." then it was till i saw her nametag tht i realised....

2008-02-25T22:54:00.000-08:00

today is e 1st day of e 1wk attachment at the polyclinic....was orientated by 1 of the SSN for about 1-2 hrs.....then went to the room for women's health...the nurse in chage was a very nice person....explaining me what is done there and gave me alot of details....lucky got to sit if not i wuld've fainted due to not taking brkfast.....

then had lunch with people from different tutorial groups.....they are nice people....then went to the dressing room...the nurse in charge there was ok....just gave me a file or two to read and i was like....sitting on the chair reading....wanting to fall asleep..

to prevent me from sleeping(it's e 1st day man....i dun wanna get marked down for nodding off!), i stood to read.....but it was a futile attempt cos my legs hurt quite fast and i had to sit down but the moment i sit down, i wanted to fall asleep....-_-""""""""""""" so i had to stand up n sit down continuously.....

when it was 4, i was like," FINALLY! the moment of rest has come!!!HOME SWEET HOME! here i come!" but i forgot to bring my keys....so i slept outside the house waiting for my dad to come home...

tml should i ride my bicycle there?? dunno lah....i am super tired right now even after a 3 hrs nap in the late noon....i need, demand, want SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!!!!!!
oh well, good nite.

2008-02-24T14:15:00.000-08:00

it's sad tht my attacment starts tomorrow but the only good thing is tht it's at a polyclinic!!! XD hmm....i hope everything will b ok.....

today woke up so early.........after gg to church with family, came back to read manga......ytd i read ai yazawa's manga called kagen no tsuki....Her works are brilliant!!! it seems tht she was from a fashion design school which as why her characters were so fashionable....plus, her stories are 1 of a kind, original and out of the world!!!!!!!!!! so far, i've read most of her works except for princess ai which i can't seem to find on the net....hopefully, it'll be out in the future!!

abt e manga i read ytd, i watched the movie (not knowing it was adapted from a manga) just cos it has Hyde in it....which was why i couldn't understand the plot...but after starting and finishing the manga, i finally grasped it! the manga is even better than the movie itself cos it contains parts not in the movie....such as their thoughts and feelings!!

nice nice nice!!!!!!!!!!!!! k....i shld really get some sleep...too much manga = less sleep = no energy = brain dead. ciao.

2008-02-22T02:16:00.000-08:00

today my exams ended!!!!!!!!!!! finally!!!!!!!!!!!!!! then came home and ate lunchthat i stole from my mom and sis....hehheh....then read manga till about 4 sumting b4 my sis and i went to k-ster to celebrate....5 full hrs of singing!! had alotta fun mans!!!!!!!! only da 2 of us!!!then came home to read manga yet again....so shall be gg off to sleep now...nite...

WARNING!!the below message is full of despair and sadness. read at your own risk.

im tired of talking to you...all of u....i dun wanna be the middleman.... from her comes hatred, from the 2 of u comes concern displayed in a wrong way....wth. i dun wanna take sides, neither do i want to lose any1....

stressed out by some personal issues.....haiix. yet i feel numb to it....i can't not care bcos i do. i know im contradicting myself and that's what makes it all the more complicated....is it a sin to not convey the right words? can't people make mistakes? can't u ppl just forgive? we are all together!for goodness sake, can u all stop pretending to be good on the outside only?

i really don't know what to do la.......what the hell is it that u want me to do?! is it just so difficult to understand and care for 1 another? im really at a loss..i feel that the distance between all of us are growing.....whenever i try to step towards u, u step back...

i really don't know anymore.......

2008-02-19T20:05:00.000-08:00

1 more exam left on this thursday........then it's attachment AGAIN! but this time, instead of 3weeks at the hospital, it'll only be 2.......not bcos i only hav 2 wks of attachment, it's bcos the 3rd week of attachment will be at a polyclinic.........

kind of excited....altho it's 1wk at e polyclinic only, hopefully i can learn alot of things!! XD

i'm DEFINITELY going to watch Death Note!!!!!!!!!! it's amazing that i've kept watching the movies 1 n 2......cos usually, i never like to watch movie sequels excluding Shrek of course.....

now, i've started to become the Scrooge....I MUST SAVE!!!! cos i wana go to japan and achieve my dream asap!!! i dun even dare to buy lunch.....must save as much as possible....each dollar i save is a dollar closer to my dream! XDXDXD kkz, shall stop here! wish me all e nbest for the last exam on thursday!!

2008-02-16T15:09:00.000-08:00

i had very weird dreams these few days....1st night: i dreamt i just had a bf but is short. 2nd night: i dreamt i rebonded my hair and trimmed it like a china doll fringe. -_-" and i wore a really really big blazer......

and just last night, i dreamt tht i ran away from home as someone was chasing me and i went to my gan mei's hse to hide....the person chased me there but dunno which floor or door number.... so that person just went knocking on every1's hse asking for me....then i took my shoes inside e hse to hide all traces....but dunno y, still hav time to chitchat with my gan mei and her brother....then suddenly, the person came knocking....so i hid in her room until the person left......

2nd dream i had: i was a photographer and was taking pictures of the sky then i saw a really nice part of the sky....wanted to take a pic of it but i was trespassing - i was in e backstage of zouk...(p.s. i've never been there b4...so dunno if it really looks like tht....i just know that it's zouk cos it had a big sign "ZOUK"..) and i had to run away yet again but they caught me and after i explained, they were actually kind enough to let me take the picture before shooing me off...

then, i woke up at my dad's call. now, back to studying....today, i must study 12 lectures!!!jy bah!!

2008-02-12T16:51:00.000-08:00

ytd had a nice time wit sofia and suhui....managed to catch up abit on wad's happening in our current lives.....played abit of blackjack....i know how the game is played but i dunno the money system involved even tho suhui explained it to me a couple of times....

haii...i tink i might have androphobia mans!!! well, tht excludes my dad n bro..... i just avoid the others....strictly no contact! tht time my godsis let me see her bf and i was like,"why is HE here?! i thought it's a sista-sista outing!" of course...i didn't say the thought out...but i dun mind talking about her relationship probs tho....

anywayz...three more days to e 1st exam.....luckily, for this sems exam, 2 of e modules will be MCQ and the other 2 will have both MCQ and SAQ......well, back to studying!! bbye!

2008-02-07T00:49:00.000-08:00

it's kind of sad!! youngsters nowSadays~~~ai yai yai!! i have exams coming up yet most of my time was spent today doing housework....what did my lovely sister of mine do? well, she stayed at home using the com b4 going out to play bball while my bro and i prepared the steamboat.....

i kept reminding her to vacuum the house and bring the dog for a walk...but after dinner she invited friends over and is now entertaining them....i reminded her yet again to vacuum the house and bring the dog for his walk.....and her reply? "keep on nagging.....wa kao...." haix.....i won't ask her to do anymore house work la.....y is it that she must be so negative minded and take everything so offensively?

haix....youngsters nowadays.....worse attitude than me even though she's older....i won't even dare hope u b more mature in ur thinking but could you please be a little bit responsible and fulfill your promises u give? cos it affects my schedule of time.....hmm....while she spends the night with her friends, im going to study the night away....cos i spent my afternoon hrs doing hse work+ preparing for e steamboat...

lucky still got my dog and my dream....if not i'll probably be in IMH for wanting to kill myself....that sentence is nth but a joke aar!!! dun take it seriously hor!!! if got ppl get offended again, ur mind really too negative.....should see a psychiatrist to treat ur illness.... btw, kor, thanks for clearing the table!!! i tried to clear whatever i could before bringing e dog for a walk.....

looking forward to sun when i can finally meet sofia and suhui agn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD XD XD XD XD although 1 thing i must warn u guys is tht i have gained alot of weight....b prepared for a big big big sky!!! muahahahahahahahahas~~ but still muz b able to recognize me wor!!!!!hehehehe~ cya on sun!!!!!!!! can chat alot and catch up!!! now, back to studying~~~~

2008-01-30T22:43:00.000-08:00

sorry to sofia and suhui that i can't make it tml.....i have me exams....am really sorry!!! don't mean to skip out so many times.....after exams im free though! btw, i sent e two of u letters already!! XD

next, sorry to e people who wanted to go swimming or badminton too....must study....I've been only passing the borderline mark so for this sems exam, i must try to score to pull up my GPA!

yupz. so from now on till my exams, i won't blog until i'm free/am stressed. every hour matters la! 1 hr=1 hour of lecture notes studying so i must zhua jin shi jian! going to have my 8hrs of slp so bbyez!! 24-8 = 16. 16- 9 (studying)= 7. 7-3(getting ready for sch/bathing/eating) = 4 4-2(hours of transport) = 2. 2hours of regular intervals for studying....so left with 0 hours to play.....-_-"

2008-01-27T00:01:00.000-08:00

2dae woke up to have lunch with dad then came home and watched the tv til about 3.30 then vacuum the floor and pack the bag to go for my dog's training.... my dog did quite well except that he couldn't concentrate due to looking at other dogs....then bought dinner on e way home and watched more tv again b4 bathing....and now, im on e come watching anime....i need to sleep....nite!

to the person that i currently detest: i wonder if u remember the story of the little boy who shouted,"wolf! wolf!" to get people's attention....well,same theory applies here....u lie to me in the face for obvious reasons many times already....so i have stopped believing you.....the only reason i kept believing was bcos i thought u would change....gave u chances but u didn't so i'm going to.

for one, i can't bear to even look at you in the face cos i don't want to see those eyes that scream,"im lying!" two, i don't want to waste my breath and time on someone i feel has completely changed and three, i don't need to care for someone who leaves all the responsibility to others.

everybody has their own shit to take care of but they still have time to take care of it so don't give me the im-working as an excuse. im schooling till night and i help too. hope you change b4 u start getting on e nerves of the ppl above.

2008-01-25T23:35:00.000-08:00

2dae i skipped e 1st 2 lessons all thanks to my dog! i was about to leave home when he started to whimper and he only whimpers cos he has to shit. so i called my fren and asked her to cover for me while i brought thw dog to poo....but the dog didn't even poo!!! man...he wasted two hours of my lecture!!!

but im really happy cos i finally passed my health assessment!!!!! XD im so happy lahs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i couldn't believe that i passed until i came home....im still so happy mans~~~my mei did very well for her Os so next sat im going to help her celebrate!!! ni shi wo de jiao ow!!!!! she even got to go up onstage!!! lihai!

well, tht's good cos i was worried about her.....she kept on worrying and was in alot of stress...but all her hardwork paid off!!!! so she can relax lo!!!! XD must enjoy the upcoming holidays!!!!!

then i actually forgot to bring money to sch.....i really didn't have a single cent on me.....so i had to starve....and after i went swimming with a classmate, i was totally dehydrated n my stomach was growling.....came home immediately put e clothes to wash b4 eating a fruit(it was all i could find).....then my dad came back and i had to vacuum the floor...

he really is bully!!! making starving ppl do manual labor!!! finally went for dinner.....was too happy, started to gobble my food and nearly choked....but overall, today is a happy, fun yet tiresome day! 3 more words i must vent out: you DUMB dog!!!!!XD

2008-01-23T22:00:00.000-08:00

hahas~today came across a blog....reminded me of my past days in sec sch.....it was like seeing the me at that time....i guess guys are also left out sometimes!! well, hope the advice i have "given" will be taken!!!

today v funny....went to sch on bus then pass by a busstop in which i saw a actor in homeclothes... recognised the way he walked as i peered at his back and when he turned, it was really him!!! but i dunno wad's his name la....only see him in s'pore channel 8 drama...

then went to class can go wrong block....-_-" my fren still rub it in saying," oi! u gonna b yr 2 and u still dunno where is where!! if yr 1 is lost and ask u for directions, i think u will lead her wrongly!!!!" i felt horribly depression at the thought of it.

then took e life back home....got another person inside the lift....when the door opened, i automatically stepped out....only to see "lvl6" sign....hurried back into the lift and took it up to my floor......-_-" best part is, i felt that person smirking behind me.....T_T

today is e 1st time playing badminton after my knee has healed! cos previously i accidentally twisted my knee abit making me ver very VERY depressed abt not being able to play....haix....usually i'd play for about 2 hrs before feeling tired....for today, i only played for almost an hr and i was exhausted.....this is a bad sign....VERY bad sign. I'M AGING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

miss su hui and sofia mans.......so long nvr see them le....well, good luck in getting their results tmr!!!!!!!!!!XD

2008-01-21T21:19:00.000-08:00

2dae was v v fun!!! went to Soler's mini-concert in sch at 12.....hahas~at first v paiseh cos like nobody go in then my fren said,"aiya...we better not go in so early if not only v few ppl...... if kena asked why we go, we can only say got free ticket....like v paiseh lehs...."so my fren and i went in 10 mins late....

hahas~but to our surprise there was quite alot of ppl....den more and more started coming in and e whole theater was filled by the time it was 12.30....which was also e time they went on stage.....b4 they came onstage, we were showed their mvs which was v good!!!

then after e concert they got sell their album only sold at their events so i bought it ....really....their songs are really good! the music v nice and the 2 of them were in perfect synch!!!! plus, i like it best when singers compose their songs and meaningful lyrics!!!!hahas~i look forward to their next album!!! my fren said they looked really good but i thought they were poly students until they appeared onstage.....no offence though!!

then finished my project in sch with e big help of hafiza who practically finished 90% of it!!i just add some info and edited the wordy slides.....hope it's ok!! doing my homework assignment now....hopefully, i'll be able to answer my tutorial's tcher qns!!! i must b prepared to fight!!!! my homework and knowledge shall b my weapon and armor!!!!! wahahahahahas!!!!!!!!!!!! k....shall end here!! ciaos!

2008-01-18T11:18:00.000-08:00

thanks to e ppl who supported me today....GREATLY appreciated!! thanks! im okay le!! but im going to do better and show off to tht tcher!!!! wahahahahahahahahas!!!! in life, there are unlimited amount of choices. but ultimately, it is up to the individual to limit them and select them. this is just my opinion lahhs......

sometimes we are so cooped up in out pace of lives that we forget about others.....so if u happen to be neglected sometimes by a loved one, don't brood too much cos that person may have just done it unintentionally!! XD of course, there ARE those who are completely selfish and so self-absorbed that they don't want to think of others. so don't go on e too naive side either! XD

well, im going to intro a meaningful song that i really like but can't find it....so if any of u has it, tell me yahs!!! this song is Funky Monkey Baby - もう君がいない (mou kimi ga inai)

the lyrics when translated: Why don’t just forget about it, if it’s so suffering
When i close my eyes, tears come out
Until today your smile and your fragrance
I still love it so much.

In the evening at the station platform, both of us sitting on the bench at the corner.
The train that you supposed to take, how many trains had just gone past us
My face looked down and was quiet, because I noticed that you were in tears
I’m afraid to say goodbye, and your right hand isn't leaving
Finally the last train bell rang, suddenly you stood up
forcing a smile and said to me “Thanks for all of this”
Your raised head, the small back shadow of yours was getting further from me
my left hand is like losing its home, and shivers in cold.

Why don’t just forget about it, if it’s so suffering
When i close my eyes, tears come out
Until today your smile and your fragrance
i still love it so much.

When is our heart starts losing each other, the happy moment we had in the past is like fake
Every day I spent is like a dream , and the timing that slipped in between
Can’t go back to that moment anymore, even the scenery that met often
woo~ things became a little different, my thoughts are full of you, my tears are going to come out.
No matter if it is in the car or on the street, or the house that we lived together
and the seasons that we spent together, leaving me alone from now on
that precious feeling and memory, keeps on stirring in my head
you were always by my side, but you are not there anymore

Although you are not there anymore, I’m still can’t forget
When i close my eyes, tears come out
Until now, everything of you, I still can feel it in my body
There is no one who loves me more than you.

Hey, at this moment, which piece of sky are you walking below
meeting what kind of people, and living what kind of life
Actually, I should wish you, wish you to live with happiness
But please forgive me, I’m not that strong enough to do that

Why don’t just forget about it, if it’s so suffering
When i close my eyes, tears come out
Until today your smile and your fragrance
I still love it so much.

Although you are not there anymore, I’m still can’t forget
When i close my eyes, tears come out
Until now the everything of you, I still can feel it in my body
There is no one who loves me more than you.

the mv itself is touching too!! and the girl who acted in Death Note 2 - Toda Erika, is e female lead in it!! she is super cute!!!

today i was web-surfing and found something and a few events that happened....after that, i finally knew what was going on.....that im just an outsider that shouldn't intrude. me starting the conversations we had must have been bothersome.....well, on e bright side, i can put an end to this rocky road im taking and go back to the path i belong....don't worry....from now on, i won't even think of trying to charge in.

hahas~but now my life is good!!! XD well....ciaos!!

2007-12-23T23:24:00.000-08:00

hahas~ went to read my old blog....some things that touched my heart in the past and i have forgotten about, touched me yet again.....2dae my family left for malaysia and wont be back till the 26th....i guess it's just going to be me and muah dog for xmas! if i could talk to the me that was 16, i think i wouldn't have worried that much....

because, some problems i had then would be fixed during the time i turned 17....hahas~ but i guess, w/o those obstacles/experiences, i wouldn't be who i am now....but the problem i really wanted to solve was with the person who protected me in need of help....and it was solved....=) im really happy.....really really happy and thankful..... :)

2dae, iwoke up and walked the dog, clear the dog's pee, go to ntuc to buy ingredients for its lunch and buy my lunch, cook its lunch and put clothes to soak.....then had to hurry meet my cousin to shop for xmas prezzies.....

came home and watched tv till about 8 b4 i cooked its dinner and cleared its pee yet again, hang up clothes, soak a new batch of clothes, clear the rubbish before settling down..... tml i still have to fold up the clothes, put the new batch of clothes to wash b4 hanging them up, vacuum and mop the floor....

if i'm busy, my room is usually in ALOT of mess but once i have nothing to do at home, i tend to clean/clear up everything in order.....oh well, i'd better sleep now....haveto get up at 10 to walk the dog......so ciaos!!

2007-12-22T01:11:00.000-08:00

getting so angry over small things.....-_-" i dunno what to say la.....think however u like and if u get angry from the way u think it, well, all i can say is that u are wasting ur energy. i told u before... i dun waste my time nor my breath for an explanation that won't be understood.

i did what u told me to do but now u want to control my attitude as well? i just cant be bothered by what u say anymore.....y don't u think about what u said to me and ask yourself if it makes sense or not. but then again, i doubt u have the brain to do so.

one more thing, i won't stoop to your level so u can stop using vulgarities...if i had a filter that filters whatever u say, i can gurantee that 100% of it probably won't even enter. u should be honored i gave u three paragraphs! yep, so rejoice!

anyway, back to today, only left 1 week of holiday....comes and goes so fast eh?! went cycling in the morning and badminton in e afternoon.....then was starved till dinner.....hmm...tml gg with my parents to e hospital to sign the bond!! yay!! bond =$$! then tml will b gg out with my cousins, who came back from perth!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yays!!!! well....that's abt all....im so tired...but still have to clear dog's pee b4 going to slp so ta-ta!

2007-12-18T23:31:00.000-08:00

haix........too tired mans.....didnt get to play badminton 2day....went down for nothing la...... only watch my sis play bball till about 10.30pm b4 gg home....sianz....lights out alrdy b4 i even got to play badminton.........while waiting for her, i saw an old friend.....chatted for awhile but cos i didnt want to let his bro w8 too long, i just said byebye....

haix.....sum peeps dun know the meaning of replying a message...tml gg to play bowling with sis....but i finally had e courage to refuse going down 2 e bball court with her since she has elbow pains and all...told her tht only when she recovers will i go down again....for e time being, i'll train with dad.....

e story goes like this...my sis goes down to play baball. i accompany her. in return, she plays badminton with me after she plays bball. but she complains of pain when i play badminton with her so i cant play. hence, i have no use for going down. to put it inn crude terms, it's something like trade.

im going to sleep.....dont want to waste my time being angry about waiting for 4 1/2 hrs and not getting to play. so ciaos!

2007-12-17T03:56:00.000-08:00

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hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! ahem. woke up at 6.30 den had to prepare some paperwork to send later....my dad gave me a lift to the polyclinc and even tho it only opened at 8am, i was already number 17....after a series of waiting here and there and finally having the chance to take let them take my blood for blood test, i paid and left.....

which is y i have a plaster on my elbow....except when they put the needle into my elbow, it was quite fun watching the blood flow out....hmmm...im considering going for blood donation....but they only took 2 test-tubes of blood and my left arm was like lembek alrdy.....had to use my shoulder to lift it up.....

then headed for c.p. to take a passport sized photo to send in as well....then hurried down to the hospital to give them the documents and im going there to sign the deeds this sat with my parents and i'll be bonded alrdy!!!!!!!

heehee...i tink im going to celebrate with my friends tml...ciaos!

2007-12-16T22:30:00.000-08:00

haix....cant believe my own family member can be so cruel behind my back....i really feel like laughing....as if what i thought and did was all for nothing.... to think that everytime i went out, i keep thinking whether i should go home early to accompany u and in the end, go home when i could have just gone out....to think that when u're afraid, i'll come rushing for u.... to think that everytime u contact me, i take it as an emergency and get back to u asap....now, i've learnt my lesson that it has all been a waste....

this is a very good example of why i value friends more than family often...i thought that u might have felt stressed out bcos of the recent ups and downs which is why i have been accompanying u as much as i can to help u get over it....but i guess not. my mistake!

oh well, i guess i'll just return back to my normal life and not one that's revolving around u. im more than happy to be away from u for the time that u'll b in m'sia....a break. just wad i needed. well, i am angry but i cant be angry too long....if not, i'll be in depression! so i'll forgive and hopefully, when u come back, we'll have a better relationship yeah!

tml have alot of things to do....have to wake up early to go polyclinic before going to the hospital ! well, it's better than staying bored!! well...ciaos!

2007-12-06T00:02:00.000-08:00

today is a super suay day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haix..... i thot e lesson in e morning was elaearning so i didnt go.....but there WAS lesson going on for that 2 hours.....='( break my record of 100% attendance for tht module lehs!!!!! qi si wo le......

den when i came home, i overslept on e bus and immediatley got down e bus without even thinking where i was getting down at...-_-"..... was stuck in e middle of nowhere and it was raining summore.....so asked my sis to fetch me with an extra umbrella....miscommunication happened which equals to misunderstanding and me getting scolded.....-_-".....cos i told my sis to head in e wrong direction....haix.

sis asked me to call dad and see if he can treat us to kfc.....unfortunately, i said,"zhe zhe ask u if we can eat kfc..." and ended up him saying no.....cos of tht, my sis scolded me for telling him tht it was she who wanted kfc and said tht i should have said tht it was i who wanted it.....

and scolded me saying,"great! now i cant eat kfc...all thanks to u! thanks alot!" i really wonder if she's older than me.....even if she is, she isn't mentally. that's for sure. quarrelling over petty things...that's pretty childish...

den went out to meet my mum for dinner but i was supposed to pick her up with an umbrella but instead went to e mall to w8 for her.....luckily my sis had her hp with her and called to ask where she was.....den she went to pick mum up.....when they came back to e mall, i was scolded yet again.......-_-"

it's really one of those days that u would just have depression all day long......hai....but at least there are still ppl and subjects which cheer me up!ppl such as riends and subjects such as japanese! XD btw, i came across this song and i find it really meaningful...with that, adieu!

been a long road to follow
been there and gone tomorrow
without saying goodbye to yesterday
are the memories I hold still valid?
or have the tears deluded them?
maybe this time tomorrow
the rain will cease to follow
and the mist will fade into one more today
something somewhere out there keeps calling
am I going home?
will I hear someone singing solace to the silent moon?
zero gravity what's it like?
am I alone?
is somebody there beyond these heavy aching feet
still the road keeps on telling me to go on
something is pulling me
I feel the gravity of it all

2007-11-30T21:42:00.000-08:00

finally....after a week of tests....urgh....but i still have to complete a psychology project, a 1000word essay as well as practice for my oral expression jap test....btw, i took up jap elective!!!! super happy!!! feel tht im taking a step further.....=)

but back to reality, 2day i forgot to bring $$ and ezlink card but my sis managed to bring it for me 2 e bustop juz b4 e bus came.....lucky! but i could only buy mineral water and starve for 7 hours straight....summore, i overslept on e bus home and had to walk with my stomach growling like mad......-_-" jin tian zhen suay arh!!!! tripped on e way to cheers and nearly bumped into ppl....

and ytd, i asked for 2 AAA battery at cheers but since out of stock and only have 4 AAA battery in a pack i bought tht....den e cashier mistook it as 2 packs of it and i ended paying $7 ++ ...tht was where e last of my allowance had flown to......HAI.

and e day b4 ytd, i had a training session with my dad who's a pro at badminton and ended up having my shuttlecocks' feathers dying out...not only tht e strings of e badminton racquet he used BROKE. it actually friggin' B-R-O-K-E! HAI.

hence, 2dae i brought my badminton racquets to world of sports at kovan mall to have it re-stringed.....i made sure my dad got a good material for the string and he paid for it....and he also bought shuttlecocks for my Yonex summore....im so happy~~~~~ BUT, he still owes me my 50 dollars for e allowance.

hope i will improve faster n b as good as my dad....o well...hope i will continue stepping nearer to my aim...=)

2007-11-17T19:14:00.000-08:00

yes yes, this is one of the rare moments that i blog 2 days consecutively.....hahas~today, i got up at 9am to do e hsework with my sis and dad cos my relatives are coming over to stay.....my dad's really a perfectionist....i guess tht's y im easily irritated if e smallest details arent done correctly...

i didnt have dinner ytd and skipped breakfast today....yet surprisingly, i didnt feel very hungry when i got to eat lunch.....my relatives will b here for about a week....too bad im schling if not, i'll be more than happy to bring them and have fun....then again,they're adults so my likes and their's will most probably be different....:p

read finished a manga online.....so nice.....hahahas~

alot of ppl say tht my taste is really different from e normal person.....is it really true?? dunno lars...anywayz, found out from an unknown source that a dandelion flower means "goodbye till we meet again".....is it true?? anyways, i also found out, from a reliable source this time, that yellow zinnia means daily remembrance....hahas~ if that is e case, then i'll have those 2 flowers planted in my room! hahas~muz get e seeds tho...

hehe~e song Runaway by The Corrs is an old favourite but still nice.....u ppl shld go listen....cyaz!!!

2007-11-16T20:58:00.000-08:00

feeling abit blue.....hahas~went back to badminton again!!! got my sis to play with me!!! XD now, after sch go home immediately and change to a shirt plus a bball shorts and spots shoes to play badminton at the shelter near e bball court....

my sis and i will play baminton with me then go play bball...den i'll watch her play or study.....nice plan rite?!! hahas~ den at night i get to see her play match against other guys.....although she is a girl, she can play almost on an equal level as guys!! hehe~so they cant look down on her xcept for sum ppl for the CC tht is abit pro....

bad news: i have to make up for a lesson i missed in lab.....argh.....1 full extra hour of sch 1-on-1 with the tcher.....arghhhh......i dun wan.....and i have a elearning test on coming thursday.....

saw a guy tht looks like a rabbit!!! SUPER fair!!!!!!!! i want to be tht fair too!!! so i have DECIDED!!!!! he is my idol!!! i wanna be as fair as him!!!! yea mans!!!

sometimes, i feel like giving up.....yet i cant....when u think of e good things in e sad times, u just cant. :P what da heck am i talking about?! i dunno and dun wanna know.....

2007-11-10T00:14:00.000-08:00

yoz!!! long tyme nvr blog lo.....im here again....but dunno for how long i'll perish from this blog after this post.....anyways, im sooooo happy!!!!!!!!!!!! cos i went out with my godsis to pick out a formal dress for her prom nite...

her sch do gd la! got prom nite when graduate from sec sch de.....so i was even more excited than her....at first, she wasnt e least bit enthu abt going to prom...cos it's like, she was gloomy and all....then she started smsing her friend in front of me e whole time we were shopping for her dress....i had brought her to taka ma...

i got super pissed off cos i HATE HATE HATE HATE, A-B-S-O-L-U-T-E-L-Y HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATE ppl smsing/calling in front of me. i mean it's like super rude la! even i wouldnt do that unless it's impt and even if it IS impt, i'll just say smth like," sorry, i have to reply a message...it's impt"...like that, u kno...*grinds teeth in frustration*

so i just stopped at 1 corner and said,"u go ahead and sms finish." and she actually said,"nvm, i can sms and walk at e same time..." it made me even more angry so after tht, i just ignored her and didnt even look at her....FINALLY, she got my non-verbal cues and asked,"u angry arh? dun keep quiet la..." after finally getting an apology, i was satisfied and went to city hall to find her dress....

suddenly got into hyperactive mode, which(mind u),infected her as well....so both of us were visiting each shop and either going,"sooo nice but very ex...cannot cannot..." or "sooo nice!! but cannt wear spaghetti straped/tube dress..haii"...den finally we found THE DRESS which looked super cute on her!!!! i even agreed to help her do her hair for her on e day itself....hahas~it's a super satisfying feeling when u know u've helped sum1 to look damn good!!!

hahas~not boasting or anything just being super happy....(wonder y im even more excited about it than e main star herself...)hahas~mei! u must enjoy ur prom nite b4 u graduate yar?!! zuo wei jie jie de wo wei ni er gan dao jiao ow!!!!! XD k la...shall stop here.....

before i leave, muz really congrats to sofia,suhui,l.l.,w.x., my mei and all who finished their Os....u've all worked hard!!!! im sure u will sow what u reap!!!! so be at ease bah!!!!!!!!XD

2007-10-14T22:45:00.000-07:00

last thurs i went out wif sofia and suhui..hahas~so long nvr go out tgther le.... hao huai nian wor.....chatted alot.....thanks to them i got a bdae present!! XD tml goin back to sch le....='( i dun wanna wake up early!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-10-06T23:43:00.000-07:00

Your Personality Profile

You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant.
Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle.
You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs.

For you, comfort and calm are very important.
You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection.
You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

thanks to sofia and another friend who rmbered 2dae...XD oh well, today did nothing...stayed at home den went out to eat zhi char wit my family as a celebration....den no more le....now watching anime.....k lar...think i'll be off to play 02Jam soon...ciaos!

2007-09-30T18:31:00.000-07:00

long tyme no blog....im still at home 24/7......well....there isnt much to blog....i just sleep, eat while bein a couch potato, walk the dog, bathe, be a couch potato and sleep..

but i am currently learning how to play five stones....my sister remarked, saying tht i didnt have a childhood if i didnt play tht game....yea rite. oh well, but i did play hopscotch! my fav pastime!!! hahas~i'd even trained at home when i was young....

hmm....today, i got a phonecall! i was so happy! i normally dont get calls at all - be it at home or my hp. it's the other way round usually...but anywayz, back to today....it was my godsis....she suddenly appeared at my hse soon after to study....hahas~i was shocked.

well, then i sent her off and now im back, vegetating. im a soon-to-be-vegetable.

oh yeah, im also getting to know people!!! people like johnny depp, the emcees of both english and chinese MTVs....and many to go....im starting to like these shows - Grey's anatomy, Secret window, CSI, kuai le gogogo....blah blah blah...so on and forth...

i already watched finished huan huan ai starring rainie yang...nice show....and fang yang the xing xing.....quite interesting....currently reverted back to watching animes......the key letter is anime{S}...u get the meaning.

anybody care to intro some taiwan serial drama/anime?? please do! gr8ly appreciated!XD

2007-09-19T22:59:00.000-07:00

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im just too bored....my sis and i are literally stuck at home with the dog so as to train the dog....den since my mum has always disapproved of having a dog all along, she claims not to hold any responsibility for cleaning up the dog's pee/shit.....

at least now the dog knows that he has to pee/shit on the newspaper....but the problem now is that he loves my sister as a female!! although human and dog are different species, the dog doesn't get it! and he loves to bite my sister's arm despite the fact that it has sharper teeth now! but luckily, my sis isn't one to mess around with.....hahas~that's all i can say....about what happens, well....i'd bloody well shut my trap.

im almost dreaming about him every night!! THAT is a nightmare. so we watch the tv and serial drama until my dad comes home and then all three of us will go jogging with the dog....and each time i want to eat, he keeps following me even though he's just been fed! and when i sit down while trying to eat, he'll put his head on my legs and give me puppy dog eyes.....well, he IS a puppy since he's only 6 months old....

urgh.....im gonna have to stay at home until he really is disciplined.....not according to my rules but my dad's...and my dad really strict....no barking nor whining nor stealing ppl's food nor peeing in the wrong place....the list goes on.... but i guess, it's worth it to have a dog!

wow...just realized i wrote a long post.....hahas~ i guess i should end now...='( my parents are going to jb for golf tomorrow...hope the dog doesnt go into his HYPER HYPER HYPERactive mode!!!

2007-09-15T23:53:00.000-07:00

i have a dog already!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just got it today!!! so happy but it's untrained.....but at least today, we taught it how to poop on newspaper.....XD

drains alot of my energy though........2nd gd news: I've finished my attachment!!!!!!!!yays!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 3 rd news: i've passed all my modules!!! yesss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bad news: im broke.

well, nuthin much tuh sae.....so im gonna slp already! ciaoz!!!

2007-09-08T04:01:00.000-07:00

long tyme since i blogged.....hmm....not much to sae....this wk has been both tiring and long......im deprived of sleep!!!!!!!!!! so on fri (yesterday), the moment i plopped on my bed, i slept for 15 hours straight.....nearly fainted on the way! but i've regained my energy!!!

went to view golden retrievers for adoption and they were so friendly!!!! didnt even bark at all....hahas~the mother dog jumped on me to smell!!!!!! so cute la!!! hahas~ my dad also likes the puppies but hav to ask mum 1st cos her concern is tht there is no 1 at home to take care and they might urinate all over.....but since i have 1 month of holiday after attachment, mb i can try to train the dog with my bro and sis....

anyways, back to today.......went to go shopping at p.s. today.....window-shopping to be specific.....i only bought scented candles....then came home to show the variety on channel 54 at 7.30.......den watched a taiwan serial drama till now....about 8 eps le.....later in e afternoon gonna continue....for now, REST!!!!!

2007-09-02T00:10:00.000-07:00

wheee~ jus watched finished NANA 2.....nice but the original was DEFINITELY betta!!!! cos the songs are nicer and the original actors n actresses suited the roles much better!!! i hope there's a NANA 3!! i wanna see how tht player, takumi DIES man!! ya man!!! i wanna see him DIEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD

hmm.....today, watched alot of tv, then anime then hana kimi japan....then went out wif my parents to buy new shoes.....hahas~ cos of me, my mum is almost bankrupt...=P but i NEED those shoes for my clinical attachment,since i've been wearing my mum's instead....not i WANT it ma.....so yea, hope i dun get blisters if not, i foresee myself cursing and swearing at the damned shoe....hahas~

='( haiz.....wkends just pass so fast....back to attachment agn.....and this fri, i'll be assessed on!!!! urgh!!! how?!! but i saw in e movie today, "life is about moving forward...." so, im goin to try my very best and brush up my practical skills!!! yesh!!! well, i shall be going to sleep nows!!! adios!!!

2007-09-01T22:10:00.000-07:00

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are compassionate, caring, and soothing.
You like other people to depend on you...
In fact, you don't feel right unless you are helping someone out.

Underneath it all, you feel the burden of everyone's problems.
Without your guidance, you fear that many people's worlds would fall apart.
You like to feel in charge, even if it brings you a lot of stress.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

table width=350 align=center border=0 cellspacing=0 cellpadding=2>Your Personality Cluster is Introverted Thinking
You are:

Objective, honest, and credible
Intellectually curious, with many diverse interests
More inclined toward ideas than people
Fiercely independent and unapologetically unconventional

What's Your Personality Cluster?

You Have A Type A- Personality

You are one of the most balanced people around
Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want
You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you.

When it's playtime, you really know how to kick back
Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love!
You live life to the fullest - incorporating the best of both worlds

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

i guess these quizzes really takes my mind off things...hahas~

2007-09-01T21:34:00.000-07:00

2dae started out happy! woke up and ate lunch with dad but felt like vomiting so ate abt 1/2.....den went out to mit shirley to watch 1408 movie.....nt as scary as i thought it would be....rather, it helped me be not so scared! hahas!

came home and watched a variety show on channel 54 at abt 8pm.....very nice n funny!!! den mum and dad came home from golf...my dad suddenly juz said,"u pay your own hp bills. u go see this month's bill is how much." so i went to see and it was abt 90dollars....den he continued,"see! just like ur sis la! i also told her the same thing! tell u how to save money on hp bill but u didnt take my advice. u see la, now how much!"

i dont like being compared to anyone esp my siblings...so i kept quiet...den later on mummy talked to daddy and he found out that the hp bill covered his, mine and my sis' bills altogether....den only he said sorry....like it helps. damage is done, wad can a sorry do? for goodness' sake,before u accuse and hurt someone's feelings, get ur bloody facts right.

sheesh...i dun get it. is it selfish to expect the same treatment the way u treat tht person? im not holding a grudge, i jus hope tht the same stupid case doesnt happen agn.

anywayz, enuf of tht, back to my clinical attachment....my feet always hurt from standing 8 hours except during breaks....but i learnt more about the real life! 2 more weeks to go!!! i can do it!!! the song Try to Remember sung by Emi Fugita is niccceeeeeeeeeeeee...........

2007-08-24T20:35:00.000-07:00

ROOOAAARRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! exams are OOOOOOOOOOOOOVEEEEEEEERRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! now, tht's just the gd news. the bad news: clinical attachment starts coming monnnnnnnnndaaay!!!!!and cos i've been burning many midnite oil-s, i've gained 20kg and eyes that can scare u (cos of the black-ness of it) half-dead.

anyways, 1st thing i do when i come home - mannnnnnnngaaaa!!!!! followed by a jap show and ends off with a korean serial drama! i'll be off for dinner soon and then continue with ANIME!

i was thinking of getting a job for wkends but tht would mean tht i wouldnt hav time to myself not to say with my friends!!!! urgh.....i wan monnnnnneyyyyy!!!!!! but since i cnt work, i'll just have to save.....hehehe~im a debt collector too...those who owe me money, PAY UP!!!! wakakakas~ok. craziness is what happens when i cram too much.

now, back to the clinical attachment. all my friends are all HYPERexcited but my attitude is,"orh. got attachment huh? ok lor." hmmm...mb i'll get excited on e day itself....wahahahas...can zheng banana there!!!

k ciaos!!!!!^v^

2007-08-24T14:45:00.000-07:00

Your Life Path Number is 8

Your purpose in life is to help others succeed

You are both a natural leader and a natural success. You are also a great judge of character.
You have a head for business and finance. You know how to make money.
A great visionary, you can see gold where other people see nothing.

In love, you are very generous - with gifts, time, and guidance.

You love to inspire people, but it can be frustrating when they don't understand your vision.
Great success comes easily for you. But so does great failure, as you are very reckless.
You are confident, and sometimes this confidence borders on arrogance.

What Is Your Life Path Number?

did this for fun...haix...so bored...sianx....goin out soon.....mb i shldnt be around...urgh...dunno wad the hell im rammin' about. so better stop! XD ciaoz!

2007-08-08T14:25:00.000-07:00

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well, just did it for fun.....but im sad i look like a guy.....*sinks into depression* i dont know why....i cant study.....im trying real hard to concentrate but i cant...so i have a few small breaks....and it really helps! so i'll be gg to study agn...ciaoz!

2007-08-05T23:41:00.000-07:00

hmm....my bro moved to the dormitory in NTU le.....so proud of him! hehehehehe~now, i can anytime go to his room and slp....have two big rooms to myself now!! bwahahahas~i was oso given permission to use his comp too!!(though i had to give him my laptop's mouse...) yayz!! but i dun tink i'll b using his room yet (i tink of his room as entertainment room cos got tv and comp and games...plus the furniture i oso like) cos the exams are in 1+ wk time only!!!

so i dun tink i'll be blogging till the exams are over....stress coz got so many modules and some modules have like 30 lectures(30hours of studying...) each la!! -_-" something like Os cos if i nvr pass den i will have to stay back and re-study the whole module all over agn.....so i must jia you! no more tv,comp,anime and manga till my exams are over! hope i cn go out with my friends after tht too...hven gone out with them in a while....

juz now,my family sent my bro to his dormitory (helped him to move ma...)9.58pm was e 1st time i saw NTU! so BIG! the outside of the dormitory looks like a chalet but the room (to me) is small.....only has two beds, 1 long table and 2 wardbrobes.....dont even have a toilet in their rooms la! i tink e toilet shld b somewhere else....but overall,it seems nice to live in a dormitory....dunno whether my bro will adapt well anot....afterall, he's been having 1 room all to himself these few years....

on the way back, i thought alot...time seems to past so fast....first my sister moved out to work....den my bro got admitted to NTU and now, he's living there....they are approaching adulthood and seem to be moving on at a fast pace....i feel tht im moving at a slow pace....so i must study hard! and i shall! so ciaoz!

2007-07-28T12:51:00.000-07:00

hehehe! decided to stay at this blog!!! muahahhahas~less than 20 days and NDP will come....hmmz....how will i celebrate it? dunno larhs.....mb shld go out with sofia and suhui? hmm....wonder if they cn make it anot cos exams are coming....dao shi hou zai shuo ba! rmbered the fireworks and all....bittersweet memories.....=)

anywayz, most of the ppl in my class have started studying...less than a month to the start of exams....so the both nervous and anxiety are settling in..... the exams are one after another!!! how to have enuf time to revise?!! but i shall try as much as i can!! i dun care about the results! so long as i do my best can le!!! XD

2dae went to pasir ris library to return some bks as well as study....now only studied 3 lectures on 1097,2 lectures on 1085 and 1 lecture on 1084......that's v little....anywayz...went home after tht and have been reading manga till now....i'll just continue a little bit more b4 i slp and start studying tml agn! JIA YOU!

hopefully, i cn be able to memorize at least 3 lectures everyday!!

2007-07-24T23:22:00.000-07:00

i can do it! no matter what other ppl feel about my dream, im going to reach out to it! cos u never know if u're going to make it! shi le cai hui zhi dao!! i muz jia you! this marks my 90th post yet again.... should i create a new one?? hmm...still deciding...

2dae, i went to sch...i noticed tht alot of ppl in nyp are dressed up....as in, they really are fashionable! a thought crossed my mind - shld i be like them? shld i follow and try to be the same?

but den again, im too lazy....XP...hahas~im even friggin lazy to put on contacts...need to buy contacts agn soon though.....have a pri sch reunion....hopefully my friends willl be there...if not v paiseh leh....i forget alot of ppl liao....only rmb their names.....e.g.when my friend ask if i rmb XXX, then i'll say,"yah yah yah!!!! i rmb her name!!!! but...who is she?" -_-"

drifting away from today's events, so back to 2dae....i read manga online....goong is very nice!! all bcos of hafiza la! intro me manga now im totally addicted to it!!! but i shall concentrate on my studies!! i shall and i must!!!! i'll just read comics during break online in sch and study when im at hme! yesh! tht is my plan!!! just that...i failed that plan for today.....*crow flying past*

okes...it's late....i have to finish studying and slp! jia you! so yah, ciaos!!! until i decide whether i shld move, i shant post...

2007-07-20T21:32:00.000-07:00

even if u chase and chase and chase, what u expect may not happen. hais~ so tired....dun even kno what im writing.....hmmz, today went to the gyn with my classmates....for the 1st time, i found out my school has a GYM. and i didnt even know until 2dae....-_-"

watched an anime at home after dat....the story is touching lor.....now reading manga online....den will study later...im just too bored....haix.....today my mummy scolded me coz of various things...usually, i'll feel like crying but i felt nothing...like air like that....not that im used to it, but bcoz im too tired to even feel sad....not physically tired but mentally ba.....

getting worked up will only leave me more exhausted so might as well save the energy.... anywayz....2 gd news! 1 being my friends are finally going swimming with my and play my fav. badminton next wk after school!!!! yay!!! the other gd news is tht my primary sch friends are holding a reunion meet-up...so happi!!! k la...den i shall stop here on a happy note and continue reading manga ba!!! XD

2007-07-18T20:42:00.000-07:00

hmm.....had my bio practical test today...most of e qns were relatively easy since i studied but those that i didnt study in detail came out too......but i'm confident i'll pass!! XD actually, planned with hafiza, xin yi to go to jurong east to swim but it rained!!! so instead of watching movies on friday, we went to woodlands to watch.... watch my wife is a gangster 3....it was so funny la!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really like tht movie mans!! and the "translators" were all bullshit de lor.....hahas~the ending is unique i must say....cos even though i've watched many comedy movies, the ending is just those type of happy endig tht is sweet... but this one is sweet plus 101% funny!

den xin yi and i were so enthu tht we wanted to go for a second movie....i wanted to watch the movie, Vacancy.....hafiza refused but we buy her ticket so she had no choice...bwahahahahas~ all of us were scared but like i said," want to die, die tgt!" hahas~ i watched a thriller for the first time!! ppl, thrillers are different from ghost movies ok! dun get it wrong!

hahas~i thought there would be alot of twists in the plot but it's not as dramatic as i expected which, in my case, is good!!! hahas~and now, I AM BROKE! 1st time i watched 2 movies in a day....really a movie marathon mans...brought 50 and only hav abt 10+(used another 10 to top up card)....but it was fun!! but semestral exams are in 1 month's time so must hurry study lo......jia you!!!!!!

2007-07-13T06:20:00.000-07:00

long tyme no blog....been bz....gonna hv pract. test on wed, have a presentation and have to practice in the lab on tue ...have to rehearse on monday for the presentation....so many things to do....den a classmate told me hav another presentation due in wk16 which is abt 3 wks from now....exams start in wk 18 leh!

dun wan to say anything that will make me feel worse....so i'll keep my mouth shut and study....i don't want to be a burden....

my mentor said this," in other countries, no money can live. in s'pore, no money MUST die." i feel tht it's really true.....o well....excluding the type of ppl who wanna go into prison to hv free food and lodging....

hmmz...i dun wan to sign bond....instead i'm going to gamble...not with money but with my brain. hopefully, i can attain my goal.....no matter what, i must not falter! jia you!

i juz wanna bu Yui's album called,"cant buy your love" or smth liddat....i 4got e album's name....but anyway, hope i cn save some money!

2007-07-06T23:00:00.000-07:00

long tyme no blog....hahas~all coz was influenced by some ppl who didnt update their blogs too...*hint hint* hahas~ anyways, congrats to B.B.Q. for trying out with ahem ahem and B.B.Q.'s friend 4 doin e same thing! zhen shi shuang xi ling men ar!!!!! ohohohohohohoho!!

anywayz, today, had alot of fun in sch!! now a few of us got nicknames....fi-fi, banana, sa-sa, jennifer.....hahas~den after sch, keep running and playing until sweat like mad....den with me stinking like a salted fish (ok, not THAT smelly...) i went to meet sofia and suhui to hav a mini-class gathering....actually only five of us including cai ying and samantha....

we went to kobayashi to eat and i ate soba!!!!! for e 1st time i eat soba tht is not cooked by me!! hahas~but actually, i feel tht i cook better soba....wahahahahas~ it's TRUE! juz tht i dont have seaweed as a seasoning to make it taste better....=P den we went to take a walk b4 taking neoprints....i look so damned pale. i tink i can show my friends the pics and say," find the pontiyana in the picture." HA-HA.

went to kinokuniya afterwards and i found the thousand year of snow manga! it's OUT!!! but i wont buy cos no $$ so hav to wait for my friend to buy den i go borrow.... the poors' way to getting to read manga i guess...hahas~was so engrossed in e magazines there tht i didnt kno the others were out waiting for me till they called....sorry!!

den went to HMV after sending cy to her workplace @ heeren....she got scouted!! hahas~ she can b a model but mb she doesnt want to...dunno, N.O.M.B = none of my business. den i found Yui's album!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! she has 2 albums but i want the one ,"Cant buy your love" or smth liddat....but it costs roughly 22 dollars...0_0 <- see, my eyes show tht i hav no money.

den walk around summmore till my leg hurt den only we went home....but the whole outing was quite fun!! hahas~ tml going out with suhui and sofia agn...but im gg to study for my pract test tht's comin up too so gnna bring some materials there to study.....warning:dun make fun hor! i will personally "han-tam" anybody who does tht!
dun play play! wahahahahahas! contemplating whether i shld wear green tml....but mb lazy so juz take anything comfy to wear lah.kz. im gg to watch some anime b4 by 12-14hr slp. ciaos.=D

2007-06-29T23:16:00.000-07:00

hahas~been a lon wk! and finally friday has come!!!! muahahahahahahas!!!! ytd wanted to go swimming de but got bad weather so didnt go.....den today aledi set with peishya and xin yi to go after buying their swimsuits but xin yi got extra so ask peishya to try on monday so ended up only i go alone..-_-" but nvm!!!!! we set liao, every go at least once but twice for me!! but i dunno if i am a gd tcher anot.....hahas~i guess i'll just teach her the very basic frogstyle jiu hao le.....

hmmz....today had 2 tutorials - 1 i didnt kno so i didnt bring the bk, the other i purposely didnt bring cos i thought was the SDL but the tcher say tht tht is tutorial 4 but we were doing tutorial 5 today which is a presentation....-_-"den i was e only one who didnt prepare my part while all the other members of the grp did theirs.....but luckily hafiza and helped me to think of answers on the spot....hahas~so it was ok...in return, i hav to prepare for tutorial 6...

den go back home and watch anime + study.....studying for the theory test is abit difficult when there is no manual nor textbook for this module! so juz have to study what i have - the workbook....starting to study....everyday, i will revise what i have learnt i the day so that it will be easier for me to study for other modules before the semestral exams.....

den gonna study tml for the upcoming theory test den sun go out shopping wif my sis....hahas~k la....better stop here and study le.....if not i will have to sleep late....so ciaos~

2007-06-24T13:26:00.000-07:00

so bored....sch has started again....last nite i was so used to slping in the day tht i only slept at 3am....-_-" so now im so friggin tired....after this 2 hr break, my lessons are gonna to run continuously till 6pm....urgh.....im just going to plomp on my bed the momnet im home!!

and tomorrow, i have a group presentation....wowza. and hotmail takes too damn long to upload my file!!!! it's been like 5 minutes...and the file is only 20.468 KB....4get it....hotmail's mail just sucks. im movin back to yahoo....

cnt w8 for wed! hopefully, my classmates will be free....hahas~k la....gonna stop here and nap for a little while...ciaos~

2007-06-23T03:20:00.000-07:00

hahas~ im back to blog! anywayz, today i went out with my primary sch friend....hahas~so fun....watched the jap movie - the girl who leapt through time....it was so touching!!! found another person who loves jap movies as much as i do! we oso wanted to watch nancy drew bu mb next time ba....den went to her sch's event after the movie....now tht she's in sp....hav 2 get up earlier than me to go to sch....hahahas~

the event was a programme filled with performances and letting the residents watch it.... my only job as a helper there was to give out the drinks and ask them to fill in the surveys after the performance....got alot of performances such as a 6 yr old playing the drums VERY WELL, a 5 yr old boy playing the piano and a group of young children playing the violin and more.....lasted abt 3 hrs including packing up and all.....

very fun! hahas~then after the movie i went to buy a new pair of shoes and threw away those tht i wore on the spot....1st time doing it but it feels good! hahas~wanted to buy a pen for my dad then asked my mum what colour he likes but my mum said dun need buy since he got so many and never use....abit upset but i bought his favourite food on the way home....hahas~ i guess thats my present for the belated fathers' day! gonna celeb with my family tml so all of us are gonna cook for my dad except for my bro since he has work......

i finished studying the 9 lectures and the essay.....i hope i didnt go off-point for my essay.....didnt receive the project on safety & healthcare....how am i going to edit it?!! haix...have to tell the teammate of mine to hurry send....waited so long alrdy....i cnt possibly finish it in less than a day....anywayz, as for the psychology project, i'll just add the photos and do some custom animation and it'll be done! XD k la....till here! ciaos~

2007-06-20T23:33:00.000-07:00

started studying again....hmms...i really put a stop to anime but i turn to MVs instead....i wanna buy Yui's album!!! i want the album witth the song highway chance!!! it's so friggin NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! makes me in a good mood....

hmmz....sun went out with sofia and suhui...pirates of the carribean were sold out so we watched Men in White....at first the movie was abit scary but really, it's nothing scary AT ALL. its HILARIOUS!!! but unrealistic.....im looking forward to another movie....i forgot the name of it but it's english movie and it's action-packed!! i oso look forward to watching Nancy Drew!!! i was a fan of her stories when i was young!! hahas~adventure stories....

as for monday until today, i've kept watching animes and studying....until we had a group meeting today online in msn....then i had to edit the psychology project...i just finished editing it....hakiim msged me tht i could compile everything into slides..hahas~of course i'll be more than happy to!!!! this is what i've been looking forward to!!! okies! im going to make sure it's perfect!!!

hmms...i'll have to study 9 more lectures, do 3 more quizzes, study on a quiz for 1086 and finish a 1000 word essay....i guess i'll be busy and wont be upd8ing for awhile again....so take care ppl! im off to study!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-06-16T23:36:00.000-07:00

it's been awhile since i blogged...main reason: lazy. im honest rite? wahahahas~jk jk...i guess i'll start from what happened on thursday....went there and found out only 1/2 of the class turning up....but we still had alot of fun!!!

hahas~rented bicycles, set up a tent, set up a fire(had to do it 2 or 3 times cos the fire kept dying out)...it looked liked it was about to rain but luckily the grey clouds moved away.....

den lasted until night time about 8.30 den a group of us went home tgt....hahas~it's the 1st time i've actually had so much fun in a bbq (usually i tend to hold back) crapped alot and laughed ourselves crazy....hahas~ i really love this class....i rmb we were waiting for the 354 bus to come but it was taking too long so i suggested that we walk to the bus interchange instead then as we walked, we saw the 354 coming so we ran all e way to the next bus stop.....hahas~so funny man!!!! but it was really fun!!! =D made lotsa memories and bonded with them...

as for friday, i stayed up until 4am the previous night,(yes, despite playing so much on thursday...) watching anime and studying....Gakuen Alice is a really funny and touching anime!!! NICE! (flashes big smile with a BIG thumbs-up)and slept till 5pm.....

den watch anime again until 4am and slept until 3pm today....den went out and shopped and bought a (my POV) elegantly, pleated skirt.....FYI,i had to buy one cos of the presentations, we have to dress formally.....a teacher said it would add points and the next thing u know, for almost every presentation, we wear formal....-_-"

anyways, back to today, i finished watching Gakuen Alice!!! really, it's a happy ending but for romance lovers, sorry! not THAT type of happy ending! it's tilted more to the side of friendship...=D but still, its nice! yupz! so, ciao~

2007-06-13T02:48:00.000-07:00

hahas~ seems like everything is back to normal....now im really like a vampire! i study and watch anime from 7pm-6.30am and sleep from 6.30 to 5pm.....-_-" started yesterday cos i couldnt sleep at night so watch anime and study until daylight...im really rotting at home sia....but tml got class bbq....hahas~looking forward to it!!!!

ytd finished more than half of the stupid 1000 word essay.....it's just as i predicted - as u write more, u soon realize 1000 words essay is nothing de...hahas~cos it's a reflection on the presentation and how critical thinking is used in the project.... quite alot to say.....but i wonder if i sidetracked anot....hopefully not....i think when i roughly finished, i'll go to sch and ask the lecturer to read it...

as for my other subjects....aiyaiyai!!!! 2 practical tests coming up in july and semestral exams are in august......so trying to start studying....hahas~i hav a weird feeling when i watch animes, as if there is someone telling me that studies is more important and the next thing i do is pause the anime and study....hahas~is really 1/2 sleep, 1/4 study and 1/4 watch anime...but after i watch finish this series of anime, im really going to stop le.....i shall and will!!! k la....i go bathe le.....

2007-06-12T21:11:00.000-07:00

stayed up all night den slept at 7am until 3pm in the afternoon...stayed up watching animes and MVs....then when i woke up, i planned the dates on my calendar and organised my schedule....i am my own secretary sia.....practical tests comin soon 3 wks after the break....muahahahas~im gonna to PING!!!!!! den wk18-19 will be the semestral exams le.....i really hope the SGH will call me up for an interview so that i can be sponsored....

2dae my mum told me tht she is gonna retire at the end of the yr....YES!!! den she can become housewife again! hahas~i miss her baking and cooking!!!!! she dunno how many years nvr bake le.....hahas~suddenly rmbered the period of time when she started working....was so sad....but i learn't how to be independent...=D

haiz...i miss school!!! at home nth to do..i study will only be distracted by comp....

i understand that when children make mistakes, it is only right that they apologize to their parents.....but if parents wrongly accuse children of smth they didn't do, they should apologize too right? so what if they have more authority? this is basic manners and not a matter of pride. this does not apply only to parents but people of higher authority - teacher/student, older sibling/younger sibling, elderly/young....u get the drift. i guess its only a matter of principle...

what i just said above is just a thought....hahas~dont mind! tomorrow,i'll be studying and using the comp ba...time flying by sia.....

2007-06-11T22:30:00.000-07:00

went to fish and co yesterday to celeb my sister's birthday had new york fish and chips....the fish is big!!!! and very oily....don't say i didn't warn u. had a citrus cocktail....im nvr gonna drink it agn....cos my face was flushed and my vision was a blur so i fell down.........-_-"

hahas~2day went to visit jose dey all....hahas~very fun....but had a feeling tht alot has changed....their shops got alot of new stocks le....but i still recognize the old clothes....hahas~wa...uncle style his hair until stylo milo sia! jose slim down le but she tink she is fatter...-_-" elise wasnt there cos she has 1 wk off, hui ting was still as bubbly and violent...jk...hahas~chatted quite a bit waited for bao bao until 5 pm when she came back from class and we were like,"AAAaaaaa!!! i miss u!!!!!!!!" and so on and forth...hahas~gonna visit them soon again...bcos i lost my ring and i tink i probably left it there...=P

urgh....wanted to do my hw today....but the CMS wont open and my project stuff is inside the laptop which keeps hanging the moment it hits the desktop screen.....how to do ANY hw!!!!! so angry! i guess..i'll just take the chance to watch anime...den i'll just revise b4 goin to slp.....

2007-06-10T14:50:00.000-07:00

i think im sick alrdy....i cnt even tahan abit of cold nowadays...go sch muz bring jacket for lectures and tutorials but i can still get goosebumps even with jacket on... but once out of class, it's hot until make me sweat....i oso cnt tahan too hot.... hence, the only reason i can come up with is that cos of the temperature changes (from sudden cold too hot or vice versa) in the body is fluctuating alot, i get sick.

but now no need go sch le so shld be fine...ytd waited up for sis till 2+am den decided to take a little nap....supposed to go mit her at 3 but my little nap bcame slp...den when she came home, i was like,"sorry....i put my phone 2 silent mode so culdnt hear u calling..." expected her to fire at me but she didnt and said it was ok...asked me whether wanna go downstairs to cheers buy brkfast but my head was spinning so i said dun wan.....

then slp until 2pm....wake up and brush up....today gonna celebrate sis' belated birthday....sorry suhui and sofia, i shld hav informed u by phone that this sun i not free...sorry for ruining the plans....
k...ciaos~

2007-06-08T17:43:00.000-07:00

HOLIDAYS!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!! BANZAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *throws flowers* HIP HIP HURRAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FINALLY, the holidays are here! today supposed 2 go with class 2 escape so last night alrdy prepare wad to bring....but luckily, i smsed meera last night and she told me the class werent going cos too few ppl wanna go...heng....if not, i'll be the only fool wearing khaki shorts to school.-_-" hahas~so long as u hav e courtesy to tell me the changes beforehand can le, i dun mind! ...hahas~gonna hav class bbq next wk le!

hafiza,xin yi and i were walking in sch when we saw Mr. Ibrahim, our mentor. so hafiza asked him for class funds for the bbq den he say hav 2 ask 2 months in advance! omfgdness! so 4get it...here's y need 2 ask 2 months inadvance: cos the money comes from the government. this scene is EXACTLY like the scene in the singapore movie Just Follow Law, where fann wong just wans to borrow a fan but has 2 ask all her superiors 2 days beforehand by email.....

hahas~but i can see tht our class is really united...no discrimination and name-calling such as loner all that anymore....=D it's gd....even though we still hav the grps we hang out in but we can anytime stick as a class....really, this is the 1st time i see a class so united....

but hor, i wanted to do the project but they ppl in my grp say tht work muz be even...i canot b selfish, do everythin myself so now, my only hw is to do some online quizzes for bio sci and the individual written assignment for critical thinking...but i can study for the exams in august....

hahas~ k la....tht's all for today...i shall enjoy my animes before getting the long sleep i've been waiting for this whole week for! okies! ciaos!!

2007-06-06T22:36:00.000-07:00

hahas~watched a new anime! quite nice la....

today i finished my test and 2 more days to holidays! yay!!!!!!!! im sure i will at least get a B for my test cos i really studied for it! went home today and the bus was late for 45 mins....-_-" but i enjoyed waiting cos i could think of some old times in sec sch...hahas~the staircase and the dnt block....

just now was quite depressed but i wondered,"y cant people rmb the good ol' times during the bad times?" and tht's wad got me happy and motivated agn....hahas~k la...gonn slp soon. ciaos~~~

2007-06-05T19:17:00.000-07:00

for today....i forgot to take my file out of class and didnt even realize it till about 10 mins later....hafiza was like,"dont u feel smth is missing?" it was then tht i realized....then she added,"it's the guy who sat bhind u tht gave it to peishya they all...so later better say thank you!"

urgh....to thank a person who kept interrupting during the lesson(i especially hate that) made me had a bad feeling inside my stomach....hahas~then when i went back to class, ya mei oso said,"u tok to him hor...u will regret it cos he will keep disturbing u wan..." so thanks for returning my file but sorry, i wont say it to you directly....anyway, he sat somewhere else in class so i cldnt find him....=P

den for the last lecture, the tcher didnt show up lor.....make me wait until 5.20 for nth.....so went home....just edited this post....bcos i feel better....thanks to tht listening ear.....so in return, u shall only owe me 12 favours not 13!! =D just now was realli stressed out ....

tht's all for today.....ciao.

2007-06-04T23:25:00.000-07:00

sch was a long day today! 9am to 6pm and only 1 hr of break! hahas~finally got in touch with jose! gonna visit her and the others on mon!! hahas~it's been 1 or 2 months le ba....hahas~hav been busy with projects and studying...=P....want to buy them smth but i dun wanna buy smth of no value...i wanna buy smth tht they like and can use....hmmmm......dunno lehs....dao shi hou zai xiang ba! wahahahas~

today had the mini-presentation...i felt tht it went quite well from my point of view....=( but hafiza dun allow me to anymore presentations le...say that everytime oso i do and all she can do is smile and say ha-ha....not true at all!they juz dunno tht presenting is a very scary duty...so i actually admire them for being able to present....unlike me, get nervous and get tongue twisted!!! in a presentation!!!!

but im beginning to like my group more and more....hahas~got booked again...this fri going to escape with my classafter sch.... den going to a game cafe with rach and shirley to hav fun on sat late night! wah...den im booked the whole wkend sia....-_-"....and im definitely going to be broke agan...but i'll definitely set asde money to watch the movie with sofia and suhui! =DD so happi!!!

wed got another MCQ! but luckily only hav 2 study 7 lectures....so can relac abit....not like the bio sci test....20 over lectures!!!..well,im just glad i said thru it......oks...i shall study!!!! hopefully will score an A!!! i will and must jia you!

2007-06-03T07:22:00.000-07:00

slept only 3 hours last night...went to city harvest church with shirley and julia....met shaun dere too! hahas~the more he talks, the more i feel tht he is like my cousin.....den u know what?! Faye and Ah Qing from FIR were there too!!! then the guy who sings the song "liu se cai hong" also did a live performance!!! hahas~videoed part of it wit my hp but i sat too far back so couldnt even capture the singer...-_-" but i finally got a real experience of what a live performance is about! and it really rocks!

then after that, shirlay and i left....julia and shaun stayed there....hahas~xiao didi even called shirley to stay wor...heh heh heh~i see smth brewing!!! jk la....if only he older then her, i think she will definitely accept him de lor....she is stubborn!

but went to ljk to hav lunch at simei then went to changi airport to 1/2 study 1/2 sleep...cos she didnt sleep e whole night! so we took turns lor....i study,she sleep. she study,i sleep....hahahas~went to sengkang library to study l8er and had so much fun....laughed alot sia! the eyebrow lesson!!! i'll never forget!! hahas~gd lar...cos i'd been abit stressed out and today really made me laugh until cheekbone and stomach pain!!

hahas~will go out during da holidays with rach kaes?!! muahahahas~then we go shoping!!!!!i need a pair of new shoes! mine par-char liaos! got 2 BIG holes! tml got the mini-presentation....shall study again! i hav got the motivation to last me the whole week at least!!! =DD

sofia and suhui, sorry lehs....this wk i cnt make it even though i was the one who organised it.....cos this sunday i'll be celebrating my sister's belated bdae....im really sorry! i apologize for not being able to make it!

2007-06-01T00:26:00.000-07:00

i dun even hav the mood to watch anime....feeling moody....mb cos of the project.....disappointed in myself....i could have done the presentation better and not trouble my teammates but i had to forget this and that......haix.....all last minute....even the video that i was so eager to show the class couldnot be viewed on the projector.....sheesh....went for my psychology lesson today....was said that im a type A+C personality....hahas~i love psychology......

den went to buy a packet of nasi lemak and 1 bag of maggi noodles for my bro...my parents wont be back till sunday since they went dunno where for golf....so till then, i'll just rot and die at home. slept from 5-9pm then woke up.....

my bro had bought maggi noodles and he said,"i bought it for you..."! cnt blieve we bought the same brand and flavour!!!! hahahas~ great minds think alike! then we were laughing it off....so i cooked the noodles for both of us and he had to do the washing....muahahaha.

then watched tv all e way until 12am....suddenly feel like going out....so smsed my sis to ask her if she wanna go out but she's working....sian. thought of gg out by myself....but i bet i'll be even more moody so X! cancel idea.then i thought of blogging....so here i am.....wanted to call my friends to chat but they seem to be in a bad state too......mb i'll try calling him later on....nth to do anyway....

concluxion fer terday(no wait...it shld be yesterday since it's past 12am) - it's a fcuked up day. pardon the usage of vulgarities but using it once in a blue moon is fine right? au revoir.

2007-05-30T20:35:00.000-07:00

class ended at 11am but my grp had a meeting until about 1.30pm....then i went out of sch to top up my student ezlink card....den i happily talked on e phone with sofia and suhui until e bustop then only i realized i forgot i had to top-up and i had no coins.....so had no choice but to walk all e way back to the mrt to top-up and all e way to e busstop again...-_-"

den hor,come back home, watched my anime happily den got some stupid email from some imbecile which kind of ruined my happy mood....immediately deleted it and carried on watching....but i watch a new anime half-way,the laptop shut down by itself....so forget it, ppl up there juz dun wan me to watch anymore for today....qi si wo le! tried to watch again....this time, the website say want to renovate or smth liddat... wth!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now i really believe the saying," what's meant for u will happen,what is not meant for you will never happen." -_-"""""""""

class ended early 2day cos our 1hr tutorial from 2-2.50 was post-poned to the following monday during our breaks....gd for 2day but bad for monday.....k la...looking forward to next sunday.....=DD

2007-05-29T21:21:00.000-07:00

i just rmbered a helluva gd news!!!!!!!!! thursday is a public holiday!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! heh heh heh heh heh~ i can sleep in and wake up late! and watch animes and use e comp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHA! i cant waiitttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt!

anywayz,gd news aside, i hav to bring my super-duper-heavy laptop to school....cos we hav a mini-presentation and we hav to rehearse for our presentation for friday.... -_-" hopefully by the end of the day, i wont be walking with one shoulder sagging..... if not i'll be worse than the bar-kar security guard!

thought of something today.....it does not matter if he is not around, because i have the memories that will stay with me forever and ever. with that, i can be content! =)

as for today....well, i wore flip-flops to sch.....din know tht the tigeress had one hour of tutorial with us so didnt bother to wear heel-straped shoes....then when it was her tutorial, i walked into the classroom reading my book.....she was inspecting at each person's shoes as they went in la! den she called,"ei....that girl!!" then i turned around, ready to receive the form to sign that i wore flip-flops....she said,"what is the book u are reading?"

i was in shock....seriously....but i recovered in time to lend her the book to let her have a look-see...then she was like,"that's a good book! u can find it in the library!" although my mind was like,"obviously! i borrowed it FROM the LIBRARY!" , i was relieved that she diddnt catch me.....as soon as class ended, i was the 1st to burst out of that room and run to the lift.....hahas~heng sia!!!! another gd news,today is the last lesson of critical thinking with her! but she is still my practical tcher...dang....the tigeress.hahas~ k la....gonna slp early...ciaos~

2007-05-28T23:48:00.000-07:00

2dae was ok. juz tht im proud of myself! cos....i 4got to bring money and had only 2.50 of change in my pocket! best part - i used 1.50 on bus fare and the 1 dollar to survive for lunch! INCREDIBLE RIGHT?!!!!!!!!!!!! wahahahahahas!!!! and i managed to buy a pao and a ribena!!! WAhahahahahas!

2nd proud thing - i was reading a Dan Brown book when i was so tired, i slept in the library. good thing i sat in a cubicle study area right at the back.....=DD

had fun in practical with tigeress! although she scolded us for not being prepared for practical, she still showed us the answers....hahas secretly transferred some of hafiza's songs into my hp but was still found out by her....-_-"

tml got class at 10....hope i dont oversleep! so ya,ciaos~

2007-05-26T20:03:00.000-07:00

it's only been about 2-3 weeks and i feel tht alot has happened...to sofia and suhui, dunno what has happened to e both of ur lives....u probably know tht im going to say "no matter what, jus giv me a call n i'll be there" ...i've said it a thousand times but i really mean it ok? but if u dun wanna say, i wont force u... u can seek my advice anytime...

anyway, back to 2day....i cant believe i slept from 2.45am to 3.49 pm last night!!!!i must b really tired....most likely cos this whole wk i've been studying till late and waking early....hahas~hafiza and xinyi got camp thruout e wkend at sch...so i teased them saying tht they hav to camp while i go out and hav fun! wahahahahas~evil me!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHAS! *ahem ahem* (regains sanity) but lucky i never join any clubs....

im still happy tht i got a B for my test last thursday....happy tht i got the jacket i'd been aiming for, happy that it's a weekend, happy tht i finished reading a book in 3hrs and happy tht i can finally get to use a face mask!( cos i've been too busy studying....),happy tht i got my stethoscope and manometer

but! im sad that my grp has to do a presentation on this coming friday and hav to get ready to do another project for another module, sad that i stilll hav to study cos there are other tests coming up soon.....sad tht im broke due to my jacket....that's abt all.....

but overall, im still happy cos e ppl i love are healthy and living!!!! sounds weird right? hahas~heck la! but really....so long as they are healthy, i dont mind anything....so ppl, whatever happens,protect ur beloved one(s)!!! ciao~

2007-05-24T19:58:00.000-07:00

bwahahahahahas~~ i have fially finished my MCQ test!!! after many sleepless nights, it is OVER!!! i got a B grade only but that is better than nth..hahas~den my mum sponsored me 10 dollars to buy a jacket i've been aiming for....although the rest of it i have to pay but it's still worth it! so happy!!!

GSS starting tomorrow....but i oso no $$ to shop le...cos of tht jacket i pok gai liao..^^v....oh well, im gonna b broke again for e next few days....hahas~im booorreedd.....now tht e test is over, i feel weird.....like i still wanna study liddat....hmmm i tink i go study later ba...i must be mad to want to study! hahas~

2007-05-22T23:24:00.000-07:00

lalalas~so happi! nth aledi....i hav no problems! =DD i oso dunno what the hell im saying....hehe~....the only problem is i have a friggin test on thursday! muz jia you!
tml gonna study like mad.....hahas~but got practical with the tigeress in e morning so shld b not tht stress! wahahahas~take photo take photo!!!!

i sound so childish. -_-"......hahas~k la....gtg sleep early.....i tink i'll have less than 8 hrs of sleep yet again....

2007-05-21T21:07:00.000-07:00

hahas....happy agn....i wonder if there will be a punishment if im this happy now....hahas~practical was funn today! cos we all pretended to b patients while our partners fed us the food we bought!! hahas~ captured some photos! will upload later....so funy la! then the tigeress hor...haii....when she saw us taking photos, she even told us tht the person feeding is the nurse so mus tie up hair and muz not hav any jewellery....-_-"

tigeress=perfectionist. i secretly took a photo of her...hehehe~will upload later......den when i came home, i got down e bus and saw my bro getting down e same bus! mostlikely cos he was on the lower deck, i was sitting on the upper deck....so went hme together den he hor....qi!qi!qi!qi!qiiii!!!!
he hurried and got home 1st and locked the front door and main door!! so evil la!!!!!

den had dinner and now am blogging. here are e photos....can onli b seen with internet exp so dun blame me hor.the tigeress 1st with hafiza as e patient.... then another classmate of mine called Lingling who is damn cute....me ,so desperate for the noodles that i chomped on e fork ....joking la jokin! e last one is my future bf....muahahahahas!!!

2007-05-20T20:01:00.000-07:00

i feel so so so so so so so so so so so happy......hehes.....hahas~he really hasnt changed much. but what surprises me is that he actually replied....i thought he would be angry after what i did....im content with the fact that he's not angry. cos that's all i'll ask...and i can really put my heart to rest.....

finally.....i was always worried.....during tht time,i didnt care abt how other ppl thought.....rather, i worried about how he thought.....tht was y i could never relax....but he suddenly left....an a series of drama began.....but after it was over, i had and still hav good friends - suhui,sophia,l.l. and alex.....

hahas~i guess "THE worry" is over.....hahas~i just feel happy. no more no less. weird much? hahas~ok! im going to study! starting today, my plan of living anew shall commence!!!

no matter what the obstacles,i shall persevere!

2007-05-19T22:30:00.000-07:00

i just bought something i thought u could enjoy, but u just said ,"i dun like this type of things... why u go and buy?!" needless to say, i didnt receive as much as a thank you. it really doesnt pay to be nice.

went out with joleyn today....the bestie of 7 years.....chatted ALOT!!!! hahas~rmb all the gd times as well as the embarrassing ones...went shopping and for the 1st time, i ate at Pastamania!!! it was so good! the spaghetti!!! hahas~wanted to have cheesecake but both of us were full....

saw alot of street acts today.....the motorcross challenge at scape, a boy no more than 10-yrs old playing the drums very professionally and a monk(i think) swinging LOOOONNNGGGG beads chained togetheraround his neck....i think the beads are bigger than the normal size of a person's fist and there are like 40 of beads la!!!!

very interesting lor!!! took videos.....hahas~joleyn say i really like to take vids.....mb i do....hahas~ too bad cnt post here....but today was really fun tok soo much....then can go home together...we walk each other home cos we live in the same blk! hahas~ but now i hav to study for 2hrs b4 i can allow myself to sleep....and tml i hav to celeb another friend's bdae.....no time for myself dun even say my best friend.....sorry sofia and suhui for not spending time with y'all...next wk k? i WIILL chou kong de! reserve ur sunday for me k? if u can la....

betta study if not i slp late wake up early will get sick....so ciao.

2007-05-19T08:42:00.000-07:00

The longest survey you'll ever fill
out!
Do the world a favor: fill it out and
post it for all your friends.... Do
this
because the person who did this didn't
sit here for ages for nothing. Answer
all the questions honestly....or lie to
make it more interesting. haha.

im bored.

Siblings: 2

Eye color: black

Shoe Size: im a big foot. thats e only info i'll say.

Height: 167cm

What are you wearing right now: tshirt n 1/2pants

Best place to go for a date: anywhere ba....so long not smelly places or too hot places...

=> FAVORITES

Kind of pants: jeans jeans and more jeans....yet i only own a pair....-_-"

Number: 6 (also my hated number...)

Animal:DOG! and puppies and cats and kittens and hamsters and parrots and birds and kangaroos and leopards and tigers and lions.....many many more!!! but above all, GOLDEN RETRIEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Drink: ice-lemon tea, water(since it's a necessity), ice milo.

Sport: badminton.

Month: december. cos of reasons.

Juice: apple!

Favorite cartoon characters :i dont watch cartoon, only anime...

=> HAVE YOU EVER

Given anyone a bath: my cousins! when all of us were little.

Bungee Jumped?: never but i hope to someday! it's like jumping down a building yet not dying!

Made yourself throw-up?: i dun hav bulimia and i find it downright disgusting to force urself to throw up, so, no.

Gone skinny dipping?: let me tell u when i find out what is the meaning.

Eaten a dog?: thats disgusting.

Loved someone so much it made you cry?: i admit i have.

Broken a bone? nope only dislocated 1.

Played truth or dare?: yepps! and did a dare tht i'll never 4get.

Been on a plane?: yesh!!!!!!!!!!!! so fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!cos got service and games and so much more....

Been in a sauna?: yepps! but i ran out after staying there in less than 5 mins.

Been in a hot tub?: yepps!!! very relaxing!!!!

Swam in the ocean? yepps!!!!!!even got to feed fishes!!!! so fun lar!!!!!!!!!!!

Fallen asleep in school? : hahas~even slept thruout lesson.

Ran away? : nope, just thrown out of my house once.

Broken someone's heart?: how in the world would i know that?!! hurt ppl's heart,yes. but broken?!!

Cried when someone died? : i forgot.

Cried in school? : hahas~yesh....cos of results of tests.

Fell off your chair? : nope, made someone fall off THEIR'S though....HEHEHEHE~

Sat by the phone all night waiting for
someone to call? : waited for sms but not all night.

Saved AIM conversations? : wad's tht?

Saved e-mails? : hahas~i only delete junk mail....the rest sent by ppl i know, i always keep.

=> WHAT IS

Your good luck charm? : i dun have one.

New fav. song? : Byul from 200 pound beauty.

Last thing you ate? : plum.

What kind of shampoo/conditioner do you
use? : Ascience.

=> EVER HAD

Chicken pox: : hahas~a memorable 1 in fact!

Sore Throat: who hasnt?!

Stitches: hahas~lucky for me, no.

Broken nose: nope.

=> DO YOU

Believe in love at first sight? : admiration, yes. love, hell no.

Long distant relationships? : i used to. but now, no.

Like school? : ok ba....

Who was the last person that called
you?
: lemme check....erm.....i deleted my call list so i 4got.

Who was the last person you slow danced
with? : i dont dance.

Who makes you smile the most? :
friends.

Who knows you the best? : myself.

Do you like yourself: i hate myself sometimes, but im so-so with myself usually.

=> ARE YOU

Obsessive Compulsive?: nope.

Suicidal? : was but not now.

=> FINAL QUESTIONS

What did you do yesterday: study.

Gotten any awards? : yepps.

What car/truck do you wish to have?: i forgot the brand but it starts with an "s".

Where do you want to get married? : dunno. never thot of it.

Good driver? : dun even hav license.

Good Singer? : i croak. *croak croak*

Have a lava lamp? : i want one. for bai mei onli....hahas~

How many remote controls are in your
house?
: 7 for tv, 4 for air-con.

What was your last dream about: 4got. slp late = tired so no dreams.

When you last showered: when i was born.

Scary or Funny Movies?: funny

Chocolate or Vanilla? : vanilla.

Skiing or Boarding? : skiing

Summer or winter? : winter

Silver or Gold? : silver...

Diamond or pearl? : diamond

Pepsi or Coke? : neither! i hate gasy drinks!

Coffee or tea? : coffee.

Phone or in person? : in person.

Are you oldest, middle or youngest?
: sad but youngest.

How many pillows do you sleep with? :
1

2007-05-18T17:56:00.000-07:00

hahas~watched a anime called ouran host club or smth liddat.....very funny!!! yeppz! ccredits to ya mei, my classmate, who burned it into a disc fer me! did abit of thinking today.....

busy with all e projects and a test comin up.....had only 1hr of lesson today de....but the lecturer never come! so we all go to sch for nth la! so hafiza said tht we do e project so i agreed....then i just did some research and summarize the info for them in abt 2 and a half hrs den go home le......i wonder if they finish alrdy? or still need touch up on e project.....or mb, i'll give a call to check how things went.....

i havent got to go out with sofia and suhui since the steamboat day.....so i kind of wished that the test will hurry finish then i can go out...i havta study again after i blog....thought about the sponsorship thing today....and at least, i dont have to burden my parents with any school fees or money to pay for my textbooks.....i thought of working part-time secretly to pay for my school books and food instead of taking allowance from my parents....so i guess this sponsorship thing is like a hand extended out to help me....solves my problems....and i dun need to look for jobs after i graduate! hahas~

there isnt any bad side about it since i've started to like the course abit.....just that i don't have much time to spend with my friends....that's all i guess.....ok! im going to study! cya!!

2007-05-17T06:00:00.001-07:00

better blog now if not i'll hav no time to study....

well, in sch, i guess im ok with hafiza and xin yi as in i treat them as classmates le...dunno what they are thinking but like i said before, i don't want to feel pressured neither do i want them to be pressurized over a friendship....so i decided to pull out and not hang out with them so much....just talk to them solely on schoolwork....yuppz....not say we quarrelled or what....i just dont want to have friendship problems right now.

dunno whether my thinking is selfish anot....but if so, i won't deny being selfish....hahas~ cos i rmb smth i told myself a long time ago, in any kind of relationship, be it friendship,family or bla blas, it has to be a TWO way communication not just a 1 way.....

but on e bright side, i still have alot of other friends in the class i can hang out with!! hahas~ studied with hai yan today.....laughed the most since i went to nyp ba(excluding my life outside of sch).....studied from 4-6 den came home eat dinner,bathe and study again.....

hahas~ actually, i kind of like it this way....cos not as stressful as last time where there was ALWAYS homework.....now is I want to study not the tchers make me to. hahas~ironic right?
another thing to be happy about is that one of the 2 prjects i hav to hand in by the end of this month had been a mistake....the real day tht we need to present is on 26 june! hurray!

as for the other project, it has also been postponed to the 13th tutorial instead of the 12th tutorial due to the public holiday on vesak day! double hurray!!! well then...i need to go study! ciao.

2007-05-16T18:12:00.000-07:00

jus got home from sch.....tired......last night studied the lecture on pain cos i thought it might help in the project....so after sch, we went to elearning plaza to do our project....but hafiza told me not to do anymore and let them do since they haven do anything yet....so i let them do lor.....meanwhile, i started doin a new project that costs no marks.....time flew and i did 3/4 of it le....so i decided to let the grp leader do the rest since he was absent....

den i feel like a free loader now la! not doing anything! so i decided. go home, finish the project then study for upcoming test next thursday.....

hahas~just now, i nearly missed my bus stop! cos i slept in the bus....was so tired.....very last min then get down the bus..... then hor, when i crossed the road, there was this truck with 2 guys in it passing by....then the one sitting near to the window drinking a packet drink actually smiled and waved hello! dunno y....i laughed all the way home.......mi mi yan de.....u know, like drawing a smiley face just using brackets...it was like so funny la!!!

k la....shall do project le.....there's no such thing as fate. just coincidence. pure coincidence.

2007-05-15T22:05:00.000-07:00

hahahahahahahahas~read a joke......called,"the joke of the world"......lost the page i found it......it's in a book......a girl who was too stupid to know the diff btween ppl who likes her n ppl who doesnt......so funny la!!!!

tml hav to start doin project.....from today onwards, im going to mug hard even if it means burning midnight oil! meera, im not hardworking la.....i only laze around staring at the book.....mb a few pages in an hr but thats all. thats y im going to really study now.

ya. so ciao.

2007-05-14T19:50:00.000-07:00

went to sch as usual.....hahas~ during the 2 hr break, i went to study while hafiza and xin yi go amk hub eat......den ask them to buy a bun and a drink for me.....class started at 2 ad they give me the food at 1.55 in class when they got back....-_-" i drank the drink in 1 gulp and ate the applewerm from breadtalk all in 6 mins! record time for me.

hahas~then went to practcial class with them early after lecture.....so funny lor!! cos tcher not in class then i suggest to take photo with the manikin.....hahahahahahahahas~i duno whether u all can see the photo i just uploaded....cos theres a photo i took with the manikin b4 the tcher came in....bwahahahahahas! lucky didnt get caught by the tigeress if not i will have no tomorrow.....hahas~i tink the 2 photos can only be seen with internet explorer... i gtg bathe le. ciao.

2007-05-11T19:38:00.000-07:00

studying for about 1hr le.....so take a kit-kat!have a break! just too bad i dun have kitkat...=P felt bad to ask parents for money so used money from ang pow to buy some stuff.....shit. im really broke now....as in i have to starve.....i think i'll have to buy rations with that little pathetic 10 dollars.....buy vegetables and frozen food and bread.....that way, i can bring lunch to school...and not to forget a mineral bottle of water....which reminds me....i kept 1 inside e fridge b4 i went to study.....have to rmb to take it out later.....

hahas~so i tink when i go out with an old friend next sat, i'll be watching while she will be shopping......that's just a VERY sad vision.....but haven gone out with her for 4 years!! but we still keep in touch.....my only friend of SEVEN years!!!!! i tink i onli knew rachel in p5/6 i forgot....our friendship is onli about 3-4 years ba....then all my other friends are from sec sch le....

anywayz,back to this friend of mine, she was the very 1st friend i made when i transferred to RVPS.... hahahas~rmb alot abt the old times.....i tink e onli time we argued was when i made her cry by breaking her eraser.....seeing her cry, i also cried....hahas~i still rmb some classmates go to her, den the tcher come talk to me......dunno how we made up after that....i tink i said sorry ba....hahas~also rmb e times when we two used hand signs to signal each other to go home together when we were sitting at opposite ends of the room....hahas~i'll never forget...that best bud of mine for 7 years. always in e same class and her register was no.2 while i was no. 3....and i was kind of envious cos i felt as if i was 3rd......(that was my thinking then)

back to reality,back to studying....okies....ciao....

2007-05-11T00:13:00.000-07:00

just had a big argument with dad.....at first, i ask mummy about the sponsorship as i had doubts about it.....den dad toked with me as if i was gonna quit sch and keep scolding me for about 10-15 or even 20 mins......say what i need to depend on others, that i would end up like a cousin of mine who kept studying but gave up halfway for alot of courses.....then keep using words that hurt me.....it need not be vulgarities but the impact of it made me feel like crying lor....

i ren.....all e way until i reach the room,off all the lights....i still ren....until i really damn buay tahan den onli (i swear i counted) leaked 3 tears......then i heard knocking on my room door.....dad asked if i sleep alrdy den i juz,"mmph...." den after awhile, he ask me to open the door.....so i opened and he said,"u see?! i knew u were crying!" den he sat on the chair like those type of president.....den he started to ask,"who are those friends u mix around with?!"

den it's like so fucked up la! i couldnt believe how he jumped to the conclusion that my friends influence me....so i got infuriated and just explained,"they did NOT influence me! i just had doubts about the sponsorship thats y i went to ask mummy and she alrdy cleared my doubts but YOU thought that i was going to quit school but i NEVER even mentioned anything!"den he said,"den y u never tell me? u shld hav just explained!"

yea right, as if i can explain when i feel like my heart was getting arrowed down.....

so i think he kinda realized it then he say sorry......hugs me and all.....cried a bit more this time....but cos since he always tell me,"dun cry! cry for wad?!! when i ask u to stop crying, u better stop crying!" that was what he always told me when i was young..... so this time, although i cry, i dare to look him in the eye and explain. i was not going to let my pride get stepped on. like he said, i should speak up for myself and dare to look at other people. thats y even if i feel like crying, i will ren de!!!!

but very funny, after all that, he told me that i can cry as much as i want.Ironic, right? HA-HA. as if i can with him around.

i guess having him as my dad is good.....cos he teach me alot of things....just that it goes the hard way.......thats the bad part......i guess i should also submit the sponsorship form ASAP ba...i oso dun hav 2 fake sleep early to cry.... can study.....and those grp members of mine are really inefficient lor.....forget it. i'll get the project done myself. i dun need to rely on them anyway.

2007-05-10T22:07:00.000-07:00

wahahahas!! tml only got one hour of class ad that's it for the week!!!! hmm....mb going to wear track shoes to walk round the neighbourhood bahz....today, as i came home from school, i saw my neighbour's kids playing badminton....

hahas~reminded me of the old times with rachel and esther dey all....loved badminton and cycling like hell.....but after i got into sec 3, nobody wanted to play so i totally stopped playing le....so i felt nostalagic when i saw the shelter hahas~ oso got to play with michael, abt primary 3-5 ba.....hahas~i hit the shuttle cock in a way tht would make him run forward,backwar,left and right.....

hahas~decided to play badminton again.....as a leisure ba.....i tink there is badminton cca but i dun wanna train nor commit myself to training.....cos if i do and i cant take e pressure, i'll end up either giving it up or hating it right? and i would never allow that to happen....so mb i go find friends ba....=DD but alot of memories with all my neighbourhood friends came rushing back.....

from strangers den just a few qns like,"wanna play together?" and "wad sch u from?" and we are friends.....can cycle,can play, can have fun......summore,all from same primary sch tht is just 5-10 mins walk away....

realised smth about my "friends" in sch, i dunno whether they are sincere as friends and i dunno what to expect of them.....so i decided to keep the lightest kind of friendship - no pressure in it. that way, i can keep my pride from getting stepped on, wont make myself and them feel like i am just someone who accompanies them and i can have my own peaceful time too! =DD yeppz! i can rely on them solely for classwork only.....=D okies! tml i can come home and sleep after sch!!!!!!! so ciaoz!

2007-05-09T21:42:00.000-07:00

was lucky tht i got on the first class on time cos i went to not 1,not two but three wrong places!! it's ok to be 10 mins late in the sch rules....but more than 10 mins and u are counted as absent....but the first class is practical and the tigeress was there...she even marked those who were a few mins late absent! and she said,"this is my rules. u are lucky u only have to do 1hr of makeup lesson!" cos her practical class was 2hrs.....-_-"......

hmm....i dunno y but my grp members doesnt seem to get what i say....i tell them we have towo projects to hand up....1 on 28th may other on 29th may...told them twice le....then thot the grp leader wuld organise meetings...but he didnt so i just decided to start it on my own...then when they want to actually START, i'll just give them my research and wipe my hands off....except for the presentation part. dunno la.....let them do what they wanna do....N.O.M.F.B.

decided not to join any clubs.....i dont have time for it.....=DD mb year 2 den join ba....hahas~okies. im gonna sleep..i get to finally sleep early!! at least 1/2 an hr early.....

2007-05-08T20:08:00.000-07:00

haix....today was an eventful day....but it went down the wrong way..... lemme start with ytd night. i saw the timetable and was happy cos my class started at 11am instead of the usual 9am....so it meant i could sleep until 9 from the usual waking up of 7am.....the next morning, my mind was like," i feel that class may start early...."

so when i woke up at 9, i checked e timetable and i read a slot for wk 4(this wk) at 10am!!!! i was shocked and hurried to change and wash-up and left...all done in a record of less than 10 mins! i took a cab there which cost me a shocking $9.70!!! in the cab, i checked my timetable again and realised smth.....

I read WRONGLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the 10am slot was for tml, under wednesday!!!!!!!! so i was so frustrated and called up suhui, who kindly answered my call even though she was in class.......told her the event cos i needed to talk to someone if not i would hav exploded in the cab at the innocent uncle.....

then came event No.2: the tigeress is not only my practical tcher but also my critical thinking tcher!! so we had to present to her ICA 1.... we dunno how to use the projector, dunno how to connect so we ask her and u know what she said?! she said,"u all know how to use it anot?!! dunno then dont do the presentation!!!! i dunno how to use it!!"

rawr! like hello?!! we are 1st year students, presenting for the very 1st time, using the projector for the 1st time too! and we are expected to learn how all this operates?!!

come on! be REASONABLE! so i went out to find a senior who knows how to operate it and again, the tigeress being the tigeress, even scolded the senior! she said,"don't go alamak! u know how to operate anot?! dunno den go find someone else!" lucky the senior is a malay and the joker type so he laughed it off....he got it working and we presented....

got 1 more event de but i feel it's minor so no need make a big hoo-ha out of it...got a lump in my throat...my mum said tht im going to get sore throat soon.....got fever and migraine den my mum tell me to take panadol.....i tink it's bcos of panadol tht's y i can blog.....but the dizziness has not gone though.....when i stand, feel like fainting.....sit then dun hav.....so sit more now...but, thanks mum!!!! waiting for mum's day to come! i shall bake! juz hope it will be edible la.....=D

hahas~k las....tht is what happened today.....feel so tired......tml hav to wake up early again but get off early!!! but shld i just have a peek at the japanese sakuran club after sch?? mb. ciaoz!

2007-05-07T22:21:00.000-07:00

i wanyed and tried to upload some pics frm ytd but it can only be seen via internet explorer....so i dun wan le....plus they enlarged the phots too big le!!! 4get it.....hahas~but i created a friend test! u peeps can try it!
Create your own Friend Test hererawr! i got bitten by an ant. nvm. anyways, enjoy!

2007-05-07T05:01:00.001-07:00

gd news: i dont hav to act the part in the skit as a doctor!
bad news: i have to act as a patient.
gd news: i dun hav to wear the doctor's uniform!
bad news: i have to put powder on my face to make it look pale.
bad news: i have to print out the hardopy of the presentation 2dae but i forgot so hav 2 do it tml.
bad news: tml is the presentation day.
bad news: cannot rest after presenting cos got other projects tht have to present at the end of this month.

haaaaaiiiiiiisssss. hence, my bad mood. haiiixxxxxxxxxx....i still hav 2 revise....2dae my bro sent me to sch using dad's car as dad took MC.....so reached sch abt 8! my class was at 9! so i just ate breakfast and went to class....but the stupid lecturer say tht there is no lecture for tht particular module and tht he would do a make-up lesson soon....so we had 2hrs free lor! so we booked a discussion room in the library to rehearse for our presentation.....i had fever lor.....plus stomachache.....

the rest of the day passed quite slowly......esp the lecture in the afternoon! the room was freezing la! the hair on my arms were standing 90 degrees straight for 2 hrs lor!!!! had a new tcher for practical....i called her mu lao hu cos she keep roaring at the class hahas~i learned how to take the BP le!!but she say hav 2 but the kit....consist of stethoscope,the instrument used to measure BP and 1 more thing i forgot.....

kept getting alot of migraine headaches today....tired.....

2007-05-06T08:21:00.001-07:00

in the morning, i woke up at 1pm.....had to rush here and there as i had to meet hui and sofia by 2.....late by 5-10 mins....saw a bastard(translated from wang ba dan)....so suay lor...so i hurry tell hui tht she might see him when coming down the escalator....but suay suay,he saw her..... *silently thanking he didnt notice me*hahas~but she also dun care! =DD sofia oso! hahas~

went to marina south to eat steamboat....today was fun.....will upload the photos tml....2day im too tired.....=(( we walked from the mrt station all the way to the steamboat place......so tiring and thirsty.....it was definitely more than 2.4km!!!!!! screw the designer of marina!!!! it was like a desert.......but alot of memories came back....hahas~the fireworks, the 6 of us and all the fun...but back then, he was a gd person...but now.....nth to say!

by the time we reached, i bought a bottle of mineral water....and had a pretty bad headache....so sofia bought panadol for me from the store in the bowling alley..how nice....so i just rested for about 5 min and the panadol had effectively worked its magic.....so we sat there for awhile longer to enjoy the air-con.....i wanna say a BIG thank-you to the person who invented air-con!!! then we had dinner in the heat....

at first, i was afraid of getting splattered on by the oil the i didnt cook any more meat after the 1st try.....so i took the dishes to put into the water....it's the only thing i could do la! sofia and suhui not scared wan.....li hai! den sofia advised me to learn so after a long time of thinking, i tried it....this time, the oil didnt splatter as much!! probably due to the fir being lowered and the aluminium foil changed to a new one....but we ate until all our stomach were bloated!!! yum yum!!!

den went back to the bowling alley to sit while drinking.....then had to go le.....walked all e way back to the mrt station....took about 45mins-1hr to walk back.....imagine how long is the road! the moment i sat on the mrt seat, i got migraine....a freaking bad one....so i rested and it went away slowly.....

we shld go out again sometime soon!! and abt the chalet, i'm really for it!!! bt mb more ppl ba....=DD at the end of the year perhaps?? at least we could all save money! okays....it's 11:19 and i hav to get up at 7 which means i'll have less than 8 hrs of slp! URGH!so i gtg .ciao!

2007-05-05T15:33:00.000-07:00

1. Who were you with last night?
` on my own.

2. What woke you up this morning?
` i woke up on my own.

3. Where are you?
` living room.

4. Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
` yep! will b out wit friends!

5. Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
` nope!

6. When's the last time you cried?
` when i watched 200 pound beauty....

-The PAST-

10. Ever thrown up in public?
` nope. only fainted.

12. What's on your mind RIGHT NOW?
` what to do later on.

-The FUTURE -

13. Would you take a bullet for anyone?
` gladly.

14. Where would you like to live?
` somewhere quiet. has all the modern facilities. must have glass windows,glass doors! has to be stylish and well-maintained. i want to decorate and choose everything for my house. e.g. wall paint, furniture, material of floor...bla bla bla....

15. What kind of home would you like?
` high class....ba....a home that is bought with the money i earn.

16. What do you want to be when you
grow up?
` hairdresser or counselor.

17. Where do you see yourself in 5
years?
` working in changi general hospital in the Operation Theatre dept.(OT dept)

20. who is your number one?
` my religion .

22. Who have you kissed on your top
friends?
` none.

23. Who was the last person that left
you a comment?
` on my blog - myself.

24. Are you good friends with this
person?
` hahas~ it is also the person i know inside out.

25. How often do you log in to
friendster?
` every 2-3 days or sometimes,everyday.

- IN GENERAL -

27.Do you like candy necklaces?:
` what's that?

28. When was the last time you fell
over or ran into something?
` i walked into a wall. cos i was walking with my eyes closed to sch.

29. Do you listen to music every day?
` most of the time. but when i need to think, i will want my environment to be quiet.

30. Do you still go trick or treating?
` never did that b4.

31. What was the last thing you ate?
` maggi noodles. i stole some from my bro. wahaha~

32. Are you a fast typer?
` i'll just say that im average.

33. About how many people have you
liked?
` too many to count. but more than 30 should be less than 50.

34. What are you doing this weekend?
` study today, go out tml.

35. Whats your favorite type of soda?
` i dont like gasy drinks.

36. Have you ever moved?
` yep. from bedok to sengkang.

37. Have you ever won an award?
` yep!

38. Single or Taken?
` single and more comfy that way.

39. What do you want to do right now?
` bathe.

40. Are you listening to music right
now?
` yep! Kelly Clarkson - Breakaway.

41. Are you with someone right now?
` my bro is bside me playing dota.

42. Whats a word or phrase that you
love?
` go and die la.

43. How long until your birthday?
` err....i 4got.

44. When were you the saddest in your
whole life ?
` when he left ba...

45. What time is it?
` 3:27

47. What makes you pissed off?
` when people are unreasonable or irritating. i will just tell that straight in the face. perhaps with abit of sugar-coating so their pride is not hurt too much.

48. Have you ever had a song written
about you?
` nope.

49. What song makes you cry?
` none. unless im sad and go and listen to yi wang-183 then mb i will cry.

50. What song makes you happy?
` songs full of bubbly sounds,has life, good singing!

51. What do you like to listen to
before you go to bed?
` piano ba......

52. Do you have a job?
` want one but dont hav 1 cos no time.

53. What does Your CD player have in
it right now?
` no cd. i dont use cd player anymore. i hav mp3 and my cd player is spoilt.

54. If you were a crayon what color
would you be?
` sky blue.

57. What's the next VCD you're gonna
get?
` Midnight Sun. it has Yui, a very good singer, acting in it!

2007-05-04T18:16:00.000-07:00

rmb i said tht i didnt want to be in the skit?? well, i got a whole lot of participation in it. and the reason? they said i look like a doctor.

UUUUUUUURRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAIX. y so suay?!!! *black clouds glooming over* im ok.im ok.im ok. i'll just run out and jump down....

another bad news:i hav to hand in 2 different projects on 28th may and 29th may. *thunder sounds added*

a hungry man is an angry man. i skipped lunch so im darn hungry now. my dad told me(b4 he went for golf) that i hav to wait for mum to come back and eat wif her and my bro....and he added,"we are goig to hav alot of guests later on...so vaccum the floor!!"he had the cheek to smile. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeevil!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my stomach has been growling since i came home. im going to eat instant noodles! cannot tahan!!!!!

i reek of sweat,im tired,i dont hav much pocket money and im hungry. wow. that makes me almost equivalent to a beggar!! just for the exception that i have a loving family and air-con and all e facilities i need.....hahas~

but after i eat and bathe, i will have to study study study!!!! cos of project and exams!!! i can do it!!!

sofia,thanks for accmpnying me to sch and to the bus stop!! sorry i had to make u take a cab and i WILL returm that 1.40!!!! i not being calculative but i must not owe ppl money...thanks again!

2007-05-03T08:22:00.000-07:00

hahas~sorry for not blogging for 3 days......too busy la....routine is get up early,bathe n washup, go to sch wit bro(he taking e same bus as me to work) den go home after lessons, do project/study....eat dinner then continue study/do project then washup,slp. everyday de...my friend said tht im a workaholic.....siao. i onli studyholic okay?!!! =DD

im doing alot of work for the project. cos ....1)i like to do ppt presentations...compiling the info, doing some custom animation, making sure tht it's up to my standard...
2)i dun wanna do so much of the skit..... i can present but NOT act out the pains(for our project).

ya.....we only started last wk and we hav 2 present next tue so muz realli zhua jin shi jian(catch time...literally translated...)!!!!! seems like we hav 2 wear formal wear.....haiya....details im goin to discuss with them tml.....tutorial tcher said tht she likes ppl who respects presentations by knowing how to dress up. hence, the formal wear.....but i dont HAVE formal wear.....hmm...mb i can borrow from my sis....

now tht i finished touching up on the presentation, i have time to blog.....but im going to study after this....mb going back to s.s.s. tml instead to collect my cert....but may be too lazy and go on sat instead.....haix....muz oso rmb to apply for student tertiary ezlink card.....i kiip forgetting....muz rmb if not hav 2 pay adult fare which is too ex.!

haix~2~~~~pid sch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i got 1 lecture from 9-10am in e morning and another at 2-3pm....then no more le....like wth mans!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SOOOOOO spread out laaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haix.....and they can even offer managment courses! phffft!

looking forward to sun when i cn go out wit suhui and sofia!!! then it's back to sch.....-_-""......okies...i must go le.....muz study....see whether got other projects to do.....muz jia yyou!!!

2007-05-01T14:38:00.000-07:00

im bored....so here i go.

1.Have you ever fall in love deeply?
- nope.

2.Have you thought of suicide bcos of
love?
- N-O

3.Did you pass ur PSLE?
- yuppz

4.Do you have beautiful memories?
- only a few....

5.Do you take breakfasts?
- if i wake up early yes. if i wake up at 12, then it'll b lunch.

6.Are you in love?
- nope

7.Do you have a crush now?
- nope

8.Who is the last person u chatted
with?
- sofia...chatting now

9.Who is the last person u smsed with?
- suhui

10.Whoes at home?
- my dad, my mum, my bro and me!

11.Are u attached now?
- nope

12.What cca are you in?
- none...living a carefree life.

13.What games do you play?
- err....only 02Jam....but it's only every now and then cos i use e comp to watch vids instead..

14.Is your bag branded?
- nope....dun know how to appreciate branded stuff....anywayz, branded stuff does NOT = good quality!

15.Do you like ur school?
- okok....i love the library! soooo big!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

16.Do you have true friends?
- yepps!! and am lucky to have them despit being in diff schools!

17.Prefer single or attached?
- anything tht makes me happy.

18.Are you a guy or a girl?
- gay girl!!!!!!!!!!!!wad are u thinking? i mean "happy girl!" =DD

19.Have you matured?
- dunno whether im overconfident but i tink im mature...

20.Have u gt ani sickness?
- low self-esteem....but am gradually beginning to grow out of it....

21.Are you healthy?
- yepps...

22.How many cups of water do you drink
daily?
-depends...if im thirsty, i can drink 1.5 litres or more....but alot of times, i keep forgetting to drink water for abt 2-3 days.....thts y i get stomachaches...=P

23.Do you like ur teachers?
- yesh! except those tht just read from the slides without explaining cos i can do a better job than that!

24.Are u a joker or a cold person?
- joker when im high....cold when im down...used to be 100% cold but now only 85%...an improvement for me!

25.Do you love your parents?
- of course!!!!

okies...gtg le....wanna watch my vids!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahas~ciaoz!

2007-04-30T09:14:00.001-07:00

today's schedule was abit stupid. i had class from 9 to 12pm and 4-6pm which meant that i had a break from 12-4pm...so i went to watch 200 pound beauty....it was so funny yet touching....so touching sia....esp e part when the guy she liked told her tht he found out she was kang hana...made me sweat a few tears....and cos the jubilee movie threatre had less than 20 ppl watching the movie, we could occupy as much space as we wanted......and for the 1st time,(still cant blieve i actually dared to do this) i put my legs on top of the seat infront of me....the person who sat infront of me was sitting abt 3-4 rows below so he didnt realise anythin.....wahahaas~so funny lars!!!!!

but the movie is nicee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u ppl shld go watch it too!!! dunno why...everday hor, my mind kiip hearing the song - Way back into love from the movie music and lyrics.......so nice!!!!but the song tht im really addicted to is yu ji kai shi le by zhang xin yu!! very meaningful and nice!!!!! ate at Ramen-Ten for lunch....so nice....took a pic of it b4 eating it....too bad i dunno how to upload photos for blog....hahas~

too bad i got group meeting on wednesday if not will pop to sofia's hse again......haix...well, on the positive note, everything is going well in sch....except when i 4get to do my hw....hahas~

today my sis is coming back to stay over for 1 night cos my dad is cooking smth tml.....haix....the hse was vaccumed and i had the urge to clear my room.....i wonder....im treating my sister like a guest....then it occured to me that it was because she was never really there for me. yes, we share stories and all....but she was never there when i needed help....so there's still a wall btween us. and she's my blood sister. i feel like im beginning to get emotional.....fuck. ANYWAYZ, i got alot of darn new animes to watch!!!! watching a supernatural anime now....actually im just w8ing for it to reload....-_-"....urgh....now i am trying to clap a flying insect...but it seems my efforts are futile.

im beginning to not trust people. bcos i find that they just say things they dont mean. or make promises they dont fufill...if not, then they will make use of ur trust. but u will know who's is really sincere when they dont just use words cos action speaks louder than words. it's true. so dont lie to me. dont fucking lie to me. cos its too fucking obvious.

p.s.: sorry for the vulgarities. i know they don't help and only show my level of childishness but if it can be used to satisfy my (i wont say anger cos im not angry) disappointment, then i guess it doesnt hurt to use it once a blue moon right??

2007-04-29T01:41:00.000-07:00

went out with shirley 2day at abt 7pm....it was a last minute decision...so we took 80 to bugis to get her a haircut... it was more than an hr abt 8.45.......but the thing is that we didnt see our bus stop and got off at tanjong pagar!!! so we had to take a taxi to bugis.....we had to go search for the directory la! but we ran up and down, left and right to search for the hair salon but it had already closed when we reached there....-_-"

so i decided to find another salon instead....but shirley said tht even if we didn find another, it would have closed too....so we just shopped around there....there's a pair of shoes i have my eyes on but it's 63 dollars from pazzio(or so i tink the name of the shop is called) on lvl2 /3 i cnt rmb.... it's a black pair of shoes with no heels(meaning its not high heels la!)....and has heel straps....very nice!!! but 63 dollars.....nvm! i shall save!!!!

took alot of photos with shirley and made lotsa memories!! gonna upload a few pictures in friendster later on...hehehe~ k la.....gonna slp le. luckily we managed to get on the last train and lrt if not die le....=DD

2007-04-28T01:12:00.000-07:00

gd! this is a 60 qn test i tink....here it goes!!!!!!!!!!

1. Are you smiling?
> nope.

2. When is the last time you met
someone new?
> a few days ago.

3. What is irritating you right now?
> eminem. his name sounds like m&m.

4. When did you last eat pizza?
> last yr.....i think.....i forgot....

5. Do you drink beer?
> guilty as charged!

6. Do you have any friends who are
famous?
> hmmm....i wonder...

7. Are you any good at poker?
> casino-type of poker then i dunno.....i only know my dad's kampung style!!! =DD

8. What do you want now?
> to end my life. nah...just slack.

9. Are you tired?
> abit....*yawn*

10. Last spoken words you heard?
> bye!

11. Have you ever kissed anyone named
John?
> nope.

12. Besides your bed, what is your
favorite thing in your room?
> laptop.

13. Pepsi or Coke?
> neither......i dont like gasy drinks....prefer ice-lemon tea or just plain water

14. Did you ever throw up?
> only when i have a fever but i only get it like once or twice a year....

15. Did you ever throw up while kissing
someone?
> nope.

16. Who is the last person you hugged?
> dad.....he was proud of me for the letter....haix.

18. Are you restless?
> now abit.

19. Is your computer a laptop?
> yep....

20. Are you allowed to stay up later
than 10pm on a weeknight?
>of course!! but im the one who wants to slp at 9 - 11pm to have at least 8 hrs of slp.

21. How many xanga views do you have?
> sorry,i only heard of manga la....i v old-fashion de....dun mind....

22. Want to be a princess?
> nope. i juz wanna live a normal, life with no waves in my life...just peace....

23. Do you believe dreams come true?
> Yep....i had prophetical dreams b4......

24. Last song you heard?
> Utada Hikaru - First Love

25. Do you like Batman?
> neutral. i only like the christmas batman song..."jingle bells,batman smells, robin lays an egg..."

26. Who is in the room with you?
> just me and myself

28. Who's house did you go to last
night?
> my hse.....

29. Who was the last person you told
you
love them?
> too long ago....but shld b my mum ba.....

30. What was the last thing you ate?
> biscuit.

31. What were you doing before this?
> filling in another test.

32. What is the closest item near you
that is blue?
> mouse.

33. What are you wearing on your feet?
> barefoot la.

34. What instant messaging service do
you use?
> msn.

35. What is your favorite website?
> blogger.com

38.What are your fav. pair of shoes?
> sports shoes.comfy and convenient. eay to match and wont leave big blisters.

37. What do you wear more, jeans or
sweatpants?
> jeans.

38. What is the last movie you watched?
> Nada Sou Sou.

39. What do you currently hear right
now?
> Utada Hikaru - Keep Tryin'

40. When did you last buy a new pair of
pants?
> in Jan.

41. When did you last take a shower?
> a few hrs ago.

42. Where’s your favorite place to be?
> airport.

44. Where is your mom?
> in the room diagonally across slping.

45. Where do you sleep?
>bed. not floor.

46. Where do you shop the most?
> Orchard....

47. Where did you get the shirt you're
wearing?
> hmmm.....i forgot.

50. Why did you pick your background?
> i was born with this background! not for me to choose. but if i were to choose, it'll still be here.

52. Are you happy with where you live?
> yepp.

53. Do you believe that there are
certain circumstances where cheating
is ok?
> yes...but it depends.

54. Would you ever take someone back if
they cheated on you?
> It depends on the situation. i'll let him explain first then check b4 deciding. but i doubt that'll ever happen.

55. Have you ever talked about marriage
with someone before?
> with my friends....like whether they wanna get married in the future....

56. Do you want someone you can't have?
> of course....that's y there are 1-sided love.right?

57. Do you believe love at first sight
exists?
> no. but hate at first sight does.

58. Do you believe in celebrating
anniversaries?
> nope cos most of the time ppl forget and i dun wanna be the only person who remembers.

59. Do you believe that you can change
someone?
> Yes. cos my sis changed me.....i was very spoil,unreasonable,irritating, 1mmshort fuse and loved to talk back. but now.....a few only remain i guess....

60. Would you ever consider getting
engaged or married right after school?
> no way. unless im not in the right state of mind or blackmailed.

shit.im even more awake now. argh. i'll juz do the project work....i like doing it anyway!! =DD

2007-04-27T19:57:00.000-07:00

dunno whether i shld b happy or angry.....happy is bcos im getting along with everyone(which is like a miracle to me considering that i've never really mingled well with classmates since primary sch,with the exception of the friends i made) and that i love doing group work bcos i get to do what i like - doing the slides for the ppt. form....so long as they let me do tht, im pretty okay with anything! =DD

angry cos today for tutorial, i got a call frm hafiza reminding me tht there was class at 2pm at blk h 612.....i was thankful cos i was too engrossed in doing the slides for the grpwork tht i didnt notice the time! she told me tht at 1.50 so i juz rammed all the bks,papers,thumbdrive and pencils all into my hand.....WRONG move...u'll see y later.....

cos i half-ran and half-skipped and half-walked with everything in my hand, i lost balance and everything crashed onto the floor....-_-" then i hurriedly picked 'em up and continued to the lift...the lift was full!!! so from the 3rd floor, i ran up the stairs to the 6th floor (mind you, it was raining so the floor was wet and i nearly slipped and fell....) then i went to find the class...but i walked up n down the hallway 6 times!!(3 up,3 down) and i wondered why i couldnt see myclass...i decided to call hafiza to ask where the hell was the room...but i kept my cool not to shout into the freakin phone...she dint pick up so i called another friend who told me it was at blk K!!!!

had to rush all e way to blk K 612...i could hav sworn that i when i was panicking, i nearly had an asthma attack..... so ya....i xplained to my tcher that i went to e wrong blk and she said it's ok...lucky she din take attendance of the class for tht tutorial if not i mati liao. but instead of blowing my top off at hafiza, i sat down and told her she told me the wrong blk....then she was like "sorry,sorry"!!! and dunno y, i just felt like laughing thinking of how i FINALLY got to class.

in mycourse, i learn sociology which is the study of society and human behaviour......do u kno tht there's actually no such thing as "common sense"? for example, we all know that the earth is round, right? this is "common sense." but in fact, in the oldern times, ppl thought that the earth was flat and that if they travelled too far, they would "drop" ! intersting right?!!!! this is one of the modules that no matter how many slides there are in a lecture, i will listen attentively!! hahas~psychology included too!!!

haix. i received a letter....haix.....i should be happy but i feel like crying....=( dunno la! if that is supposed to be the right path then i'll just go along.

2007-04-27T09:34:00.000-07:00

I was bored to the point that i decided to copy a survey from friendster:(see how bored i am?!! soooooo....."talk to me, tell me ur name.."as per quoted from mr william hung! wahahas ok....back 2 da survey...)

1.What do you think of the most when
you are alone?
** i think alot....mostly about my life and other ppl's life or studies...

2. When it is a rainy night, what do
you do most of the time?
** say thanks to the sky(wait..tht's me.) for letting me sleep in a nice weather.

3. When was the last time you gave a
roses?
and to whom?
** gee.....i dont think i touched a rose b4....does my drawings on paper count??=DD

4. What do you do when you see a full
moon?
** i'll admire it for awhile and if it was last time, i'd think,"damn.i wish i had a camera." but now, i hav my hp to take photo!!! =DD

5. Would you rather swim in the lake
or dive in the ocean?
** definitely e ocean!! u get to feed fishes!! esp in pulau rawa(or so i tink the island name was called...)

6. What would be the best partner of a
good cup of coffee?
** a book.

7. If you'll ask yourself a question
now, what would it be?
** if im bored, shldnt i spend time on my project work? ans.: too lazy to. tml perhaps.

8. If certain things in your life will
fall apart, what will you do?
** i dont really care. mb abit of regret but u cnt bring anyone or anything to heaven.so just enjoy life to it's fullest at the moment so tht if things screw up in the end, it doesnt matter!

9. What was the hardest decision you
made in your life so far?
** to part with my memories. i forgot my childhood days.

10. When your friends forget you, what
will you do?
** abit sad. but even i forget too! so it's ok! =DD

11. Do you talk to yourself?
** er....truthfully,yes.....for my pride,no.

12. Is there anything that you are
craving for right now?
** maggi noodles....my bro bought a whole lot of them. he's the mastermind. NOT me.

13. Ever cried for something stupid?
** nope. crying doesnt help. unless im really stressed or touched to the point i cnt control my tears.

*14.* ???
** ???

15. Do you like anime?
** YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOVEEEEE IT! and jap shows and jap food and jap language!! wahahahahahahahahahahas!!!!! er.....i think i shan't go on....i might go a little "ahem" in the mind.

16. How about Japanese music?
** anything that appeals to me! Boa, ayumi,NEWS, amuro namie,hyde,yuna ito,utada hikaru,kinki kids...and mani more!!but it may be a few songs only...not all!! =D

17. What music are you into, anyway?
** im not too sure either but so long as it doesnt have too much blood on the album...i wouldnt mind......

18. Do you have a malicious mind?
** yesh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love to bully people!!!! hahas~jk jk!! err.....i also have a short-temper once im irritated!!! and....i cant think of anymore...bt those who know me well shld know my flaws. =DD

19. First thing you do after watching
a movie.
** talk about the movie or say," the place is freezing la!"

20. Do you wash the dishes in your
house?
** yepzz! learn now and it's easier to b independent next time!

21. Can you last two days without a
bath?
** unless i live in the north pole where ppl dont perspire, NO FREAKING WAY!

22. Most common words in your
classroom.
** err....."hi"???used everyday tts for sure!! =DD

23. The last lie you told your
parents?
** i have eaten dinner.(i lied as i was too tired and wanted to sleep yesterday.)

*24?*
** no qn again??

25. Still go to the mall with your
parents?
** shopping for groceries,once in a while....other than that, we go out to celebrate. even i dont go with my mum shopping(only occasionally) i prefer to chat with her!!

26. Are you brand conscious?
** nope! the only brand i use is Fasio. i only bought 2 things for facial cos i didnt own any facial cream and e ppl i know used facial products.....1 is an oil blotter(which i keep 4getting to use) and the other is a spray....dun even kno what's it den buy....-_-"

27. Ever felt in-love?
** nope. always has been one-sided. that's my so-called fate! =DD

28. Who do you miss right now?
** no one for me to miss...i just miss my holidays.....when i could sleep for at least 8 hrs!!

29. Watched any good movies lately?
** Nada Sou Sou...it made me actually sweat a few tears.

30. Is it in you to kill someone?
** when im angry, i just want to beat someone up. hahas~jkjk! i'd just play 02Jam and try to beat the crap out of my fingers!

31. Daydream a lot?
** yep.....it's healthy to daydream! cos it takes u away from reality! =DD

32. Happy with your life?
** yes for being financially,emotionally and physically well....but no cos i feel weird....emptiness? or boredom? i dunno....=DD

33. You'd rather lose your mobile or
your mp3 player?
** none cos they are paid by my dad and to lose it means im irresponsible and do not cherish it.

34. Ever slept all throughout class?
** nope. unless it's a free period.

dang....im still bored.....gonna pick another test to do....

2007-04-25T22:26:00.000-07:00

urgh! today was a sunny day. was happily studying in sch until end of the day. since we get off early on wednesdays, i went to go for the japanese sakuran club orientation.....they grped us into diff grps from all the diff schools like sch of business mngement and all dat..... but my grp 3 was totally dead, no life de. no enthusiasm, no teamwork. only 1 guy enthu de but i tink he is sot sot one cos he kiip saying,"eto...." abit overboard.....then we had to play games such as "mirror dance". shld b able to guess the game frm it's name so no further expl.

damn malu la....it's ok if u copy other's movements but it's not ok if u are the one who start to dance and the opposing team juz hav to follow....and i zhong not once but twice. suay shi bei, yi bai bei, yi wan bei!!!!!!!hahas~i saw someone tht looked like sofia's friend!!!

den it just had to rain....i had no interest in playing the games so i left halfway and went for the adventure club orientation....i juz went for it to pei my friend de..... haix....i took care of her friend's and her hp while she went to play games from 6-8.30.....so i slept in the cafeteria........toked to l.l. on e phone until only left half batt and studied for abt less than 20mins.

den got the lightning....scary~ 1 min can hve 2-3 times de leh! scary lor! and it's those type tht light the whole sky and will have loud thunder striking after tht de! luckily got my mp3 as company if not i will die of fear, if not boredom.

haven eat my dinner.....so i skipped it....im too tired to cook maggi noodles....after this, i hav a feeling im just going to K.O. le.....too tired......mb i shldnt even join a club.....afterall, im just here to study.....if wan to play, can go out with my friends.....no need cca......anywayz, imagine having to attend club meetings after sch at 6pm.....wouldnt it b tiring?! and i tink i'll hav no time to study, do homework.....

argh. i feel like slping alrdy. shall stop here. nite.

2007-04-24T19:44:00.000-07:00

got to know a new friend today which is my friend's friend! hahas~a weird way of knnowing a new friend! i LOVE group work!!!! in sec sch, i used to hate it because i preferred to be independent.... but today, as we discussed the ideas together, i realised tht my ideas are not rejected....and i need not be afraid! hahas~ gonna bring my laptop on friday for grp discussion....we are e first grp to present and it's the week after!!! so we have to rush.....but i have a feeling tht im going to enjoy this course.....=D

2day, i borrowed a book called,"textbook of pain"....its really painful to carry as it's damn heavvy....brought it back home for research for e discussion.......hahas~ my brother said tht 200 pounds beauty is nice...and since his friend has it, he's gonna borrow it for me!! ya-hoo!!!!!!tml i end school at 2.50! double yay! but i have 2 stay back for my club's orientation....if i dont like it, i may opt for adventure club!! =D k la....i gtg do my research le.....i hope that i wont have any friendship problems thruout these 3 years!! =D

2007-04-23T19:57:00.000-07:00

went to sch today.....all bcos of my brother gelling his hair, we had to take the 7.55 bus. ai mei!!!! then slept all the way to sch.....cos i wore the high heels that had not seasoned yet, it gave me blisters. 4 BIG ones! WoW! had to walk like ah ma so slow.....luckily hafiza got 2 plasters ....winnie the pooh de and joyce also had hansaplast so i put one winnie the pooh plaster and hansaplast on each foot to make it look "balanced" -_-"

then for practical....it was so fun!!!!!! we had to move the "patient" from a bed to another bed and how to lift them to a chair!! at first, i thought i didn't like this girl,A, as she kept going wherever i went and kept talking even during lectures.....my other friends felt the same way too... but i realized that despite all that, she is just a simple girl. so i told this to my other friends....i dont know what they think, but all i know is that she is going to be my classmate for the next 3 years and i have no reason to judge a person.... so i decided to talk to A....

anyways, im going to jia you! there may be diffcult modules that require understanding and not merely memorizing word by word which i hate, but if i fail a module,i'll hav to repeat it again! and the exams will be in 111 days time, on 13 of August......i must really start to study le! i wanna aim for distinction!i dont care whether it's possible or not, but im going to try my very best!!!!

hope suhui, sofia, li leong and wei xuan will all study hard too!!!!we shld also find a day when all of us are free to go back and take out o-level certs too!!!

2007-04-22T16:57:00.000-07:00

im back.....2dae i got a sms from a close friend....1 of her family members has cancer.....and is not curable.....it got me really very depressed......Gigi*(false name) is currently taking her Os this year....yet she has to undergo so much suffering plus the fact that she cant forget her boyfriend...haix.....i wonder if she can cope with her studies as well as her emotions.....haix...i cnt do anything but comfort her.....but if being there for her is all i can do, then i'll just make the best out of it. but when i came home today, i saw my mum and i just went to my room and cried...how does it feel having to see your loved one everyday and knowing at the same time that he/she is suffering? the thought of it just made me feel like crying.....

To Gigi: like i said in my sms, u are family to me. so if u feel like u cnt cope with it, just remember that i'll be there for u.

went to celebrate suhui's 1-day-belated birthday today.....it was quite fun!!! we bought a blouse for her......surprised her with a b'day cake at the void deck below her hse then we went up to her room and it was like damn clean and cosy la!!! hahas~i felt like slping there lo......then we went to cp to get suhui's psp....wa....so nice man....then i had to go le.......so we said our gdbyes...

yup.....thats all tht happened for today......although i dunno how to upload pictures in blog but it was really fun!!!

hope we all are free next sunday!!! ^^ by the way,i got a haircut at kimage.....it's fking ugly. dun mind the vulgarity but it's like shit. so i pinned it up......feel like murdering the *ahem* female dog *ahem*!!!!!!!!!!! but whats done is done. it cant be undone. (except tying shoelaces!!=D)